Always || Tom Riddle

I miss you I need you

Toms pov
It was two days until my birthday and Clara had still not woken up despite the countless attempts made by the nurse as well as a professional doctor who was supposedly trained in this sort of thing.I was trying hard to get an essay that had been set for us to do over the Christmas holidays done but my thoughts kept straying back to Clara in the hospital wing lying so still and peaceful.

After another few minutes of trying to work I closed the book and put my quill away deciding that I would go insane if I tried to stay away from Clara when she was like this it was hard enough when we were in class let alone when she is in a life and death situation.Exiting the common room I walked through the halls over to the hospital wing pushing the half closed door open with a creak as I walked towards Claras hospital bed.I took the stall which I normally sat on when I visited her and took her cold,slender hand in my own.

"I know you probably cant hear me Clara but if you can I miss you,I need you otherwise I think I will go insane.You would probably wave that away in dismissal and say its just because I am so used to you being around but I really do"I felt tears threatening to fall and quickly looked around to see if there was anyone else in the hospital wing only to find it empty and dark where no candles had been lit due to the nurse being out.After checking that the room was empty I kissed Clara's forehead and closed my eyes as my lips met her cold skin feeling the tears splash onto her cheeks I pulled away and wiped the tears away with my thumb.It was then that I felt a lump in my throat as I watched Clara's lifeless body,what if she never came back to me,what if she never woke up and just stayed like this forever,I don't think  I would ever be able to forgive myself for letting her go so easily but I wouldn't give up hope just yet.

Another minute or two passed where I just watched Clara like a hawk looking closely for any signs of life that would give me hope,eventually I realized that if she ever did wake up it was not going to be tonight.I let out a long awaited sob and buried my head in the sheets still holding Clara's hand as I cried.I never heard the footsteps of the nurse coming in until she began to speak.

"Tom what are you doing in here its late and it is past visiting hours you shouldn't b-"Before the nurse could continue you I snapped my head round to look at her my eyes red and puffy and my cheeks stained with salty tears.The nurse gasped and looked taken aback as she seemed to be edging away from me back towards the door but that look soon faded when her lips turned up into a sweet comforting smile and she strode towards me,putting a hand on my back.

"She will wake up within a week or two you'll see it wont be long now Tom"The nurse soothed me by rubbing my back as I roughly wiped away my tears with my robe sleeve annoyed that I had let her above all others see me cry,I made a vow to myself then that I would never cry again especially when there was a certain risk of being seen.I didn't like others to see the softer side to me and Clara has been the only other person who has knocked down all my walls and got through to me that's why I only used to let her see that side to me but after the age of eleven when I found out that I was the heir of Slytherin I decided that to be strong like Salazar, I needed to not show emoticons even if I they felt like they were going to burst out and so far this was the first time since that I had done that.

"Yeah I hope she does wake up soon I miss her"I said before taking one last look at Clara and exiting the hospital wing knowing exactly where I was going to go.Fran had made me go through this pain and now she would pay for it!