I'm not even on the inside I'm outside hanging out with Dez .
Peep talks to me here and there I'm not sure what's going on but he doesn't seem to care anymore . I stoped going to his deals with him and I stoped taking downers. I felt myself falling into a place I wasn't sure if I could get back out of.
Dez keeps me around and her and tracy will always be a thing I'm still a videographer. But I'm fucking her again I saw peep in the shower with some blonde and he apologized but I don't cry anymore,
At This point this is a game.
Who's the most toxic ?
When this was happening with Alex I would cry and woo me but now he's given me so much confidence it's diffent.
It's fun. But it sucks at the same time I miss sweet Guss. Now he calls me his bitch
After he got out of the hospital it just went down hill no mater how hard I tried to stop it So why not ride along.
Sleeping with Dez is ok When she's with Tracy it's lonely but I have a paycheck and it keeps me afloat.
As the days go on the more popular he gets the more he pushes himself Watching him from afar gets stupid. but I don't Want him to die. Right now we are having a party, I think. Tracy is with peep and Dez said she'd hangoit with me today. Lately she's been with Tracy, I dont mind. I just been alone most of the time I'm leaning against the wall outside of the buss. the party goes into the building now that's how much it's evelvold When I lift my head and look around I see mostly girls coming in and out of the building Some security guy stood outside of the buss making sure everyone coming in and out was reasonably famous I assume. I toss my cig and stomp on it before picking up the bud. "I'll be back " I touch Dez shoulder and she just nods continued to her conversation about whatever. When I go to open the door of the buss the gaurd grabed my hand
"Who are you?" Apparently the confusion was written all over my face because he pushed my hand down letting go.
"I've never seen you here " I scoff and take step back "Go get peep , or anyone on the fucking buss" he opens the door and says something but it was too light for me to hear. Before I need to say anything else the door swung open and Gus stood there without a shirt.
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He stood looking at me and blew smoke in my face
"Come in ma"
He moved to the side and I walked past him and tossed the bud of the cig in the trash while he sat down and pulled me down with Him "Gus I-" I annoyingly huffed and he wrapped his arms around me squeezing and pushing his head into my chest
