𝚁𝚘𝚌𝚔 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜/𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜

𝗧𝗼𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗽𝘁 𝟮 (𝗝𝗮𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝗛𝗲𝘁𝗳𝗶𝗲𝗹𝗱)

~ January 25, 2017 ~

"I can't believe we're here, so what song will you be singing again ?" I ask her as we walk through the doors

"Moth into flame, think of it as a reunion from the flower shop but now you can actually ask some things and just hang out"

Yeah, she doesn't know anything bout the thing that occurred long after the flower shop incident. As it kills me I couldn't tell her and she's my best friend, but I know she would never agree with my actions. I don't even like my actions but it was a moment of weakness and alcohol induced but that's not even an excuse

"Lady Gaga welcome, and you must be the lovely best friend y/n. My daughter plays you from her phone all the time"

"That's so sweet I'm flattered, I'm just here for moral support but today unfortunately I gotta go"

"Wise guy from the flower shop, how you doing" James comes up

"This is who you were talking bout, thought you said it was a guy. So Megadeth over Metallica huh?" Kirk jokes

"I was young, dumb, and had an unhealthy crush on Dave, but gotta go Stef I'll see you soon" giving her a quick hug

Just as I get out into the hallway I hear the door open again and hear my name

"Wait up slow down, didn't know I was gunna be seeing you again. How you been ?"

"James we haven't seen each other in almost a year okay, and I'd advise you to get back in there before they get suspicious"

"Okay I'll take your word but just one question and I'm out of your way" looking to him with a bored tone I give him the benefit of the doubt and encourage him to ask, "unhealthy crush on Dave, why ?"

Seriously that's the question ? 

"Are you kidding me, that's the question James why does it matter ?"

"Curiosity got the best of me so I wanna know" he smiles

Rolling my eyes ever so dramatically "his fuck you attitude and besides the obvious he's a good looking man"

"That's it ?" he laughs

"And I like a guy with a temper, like he can control it but something bout a man lashing out and taking control of the matter does things to a girl. Hearing myself say that I now realize I have a problem" I chuckle at the statement

"I want you here, after rehearsals see you at 5" he demands leaving me confused

"I'm not spending another night with you James, one mistake shame on me, second time shame on you" I argue but he's not getting it, he only laughs obnoxiously going back into the room

That motherfucker, who the hell does he think he is ? My dad, god himself, I will not be doing anything

~ January 28, 2017 ~

"Oh god, I'm whore. This is so bad" gripping the back of his neck I knew I should've walked away what the hell was stopping

"Keep talking like that and I won't be able to hold out much longer"

"James Hetfield's very own slut who can't get her priorities straight"

"Shit, I'm gunna explode !" staying very still as he finishes inside me, I try to catch my breathing and come back down to earth and my surroundings

"We are terrible people, you really gotta stop pulling me back into this mess"

"One day at a time y/n, it's wrong I know that but it's not easy either. Being with you it's like I'm 20 years younger again and I feel so free"