YELLOW is the person who you are living for. the person who saved your life and the reason for your happiness.
"I dream slowly so that missing you doesn't come "(-perry poetry)
Being a mother of two lovely sunshines is something any woman would wi...
1 week until Raph's death anniversary. I don't know what will happen...... Will I relapse or will I not feel anything anymore? I don't know..... And I hope that it won't get worse. I can't afford that. Especially with my witch of a mom is on my heels threatening to take my babies away. I need to go to a f*cking therapist sooner or later. But... I don't want to. I've put a band aid on those wounds (I think) and I don't want to re-open it. Not now.
I was put out of my thoughts when someone knocked the door. I opened it to see Owen standing there with a grin. I smiled back.
"Supp Olive!!!!" He said raising his hands for a five. To which I laughed and returned. I had to stand on my tippy toe to reach his hand. No I'm not short. He's just a giant.
"So what brings you here? " I asked him, his face turned serious. "We still haven't talked about the kiss." dang it... I was trying to avoid that topic..... I looked towards the stairs. The kids won't come down. They are still awestruck with the scrap book. They've been seeing the same pictures for awhile now. "Owen, I'm sorry I kissed you. I don't know.... What took over me. I was sad. Really sad. And for some reason I believed that you would give me some happiness. I thought I liked you too..... But......." I dragged. How do I say this boy that.. I don't like him like that, and the infactuation I felt towards him was because of the similaties in his behavior with my husband?
" You still haven't moved on from your husband...... " his eyebrows furrowed and I nodded slowly. "I'm sorry. I really am. I thought I liked you.... But..... I realised it was just a sort of coping mechanism? Your personality reminds me soo much of him..... And I- I'm really sorry... For kissing you." I said fiddling with my fingers.
Owen cupped my cheeks and made me look at him in the eyes, he smiled.
" Hey it's fine. Really. I get that. And it's fine. I will be there beside you while you try to move on. Like I said before I would be right here, helping you with your demons." he said as he kissed my forehead.
" I don't know if I can move on.... Owen.... It just hurts..... In here. " I said as I fisted my fingers and slowly beat on my chest, trying to get rid of the pain. Owen was quick enough to remove my hands and take me into a long embrace which I accepted gratefully. I was now sobbing into his chest while he rubbed circles on my back.
After staying like that for 15 minutes or so. I pulled out.
"I'm sorry... I'm just.... My head is messed up." I said chuckling.
"nahh it's fine..." Owen smiled.
"Hey you wanna go out with me?" Owen asked out of the blue as we watched Fast and The furious.
"Owen I told you I'm not rea-" he cut me off. "Not a date.. But. Date. But with a friend kinda date."he blabbered. And I chuckled. " OK. Fine. But what about the kids? "I didn't want to leave them alone.
" Mom will take care of them or we could take them with us." he said and I nodded happily. I didn't want to leave the kids.
" So you don't mind if I bring the kids with rite? " he shook his head. " Plus. I love their company. So it's cool."Owen said chuckling. And I nodded.
" So what kinda clothing should I wear?" " Casual will do." I nodded my head.
____________________________ Hello... I just wanted to post a tiny Chap since I kept you guys waiting for 2 days. I. Hope you like this one.
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