God;
I am so hurt right now and feeling so conflicted Lord
I do not know what to do anymore
And it's hurting me over and over
The tears want to come down my face Lord
I do not understand
I do not know what is going on
I am determined to become a better person
a better friend, a better sister, a better Christian lord
I do not understand what to do or how to act around them, lord
I see them every day together
I see them laughing and hanging out
It pains me
It left me feeling confused and angry
Why can't I be a part of it lord
Why can't I get the same energy back when I text
God I know you see everything but
Can't you see how badly this situation is hurting me and the confusion I am feeling
I feel like I cannot have a friend group without it breaking apart lord
It hurt me God
I feel like there is nothing that I can do except to sit here and watch as all the memories we made
Mean nothing
I mean nothing to them, lord
I do not get it but I want to Lord
God,
You saw how hard I tried time after time with no response, no action being taken, Lord.
I am exhausted being the only one putting effort and everything into a friendship.p
Into asking if they want to hang out
I am tired
I do not know what else I can do except to wait
Every time I see them it hurts me
I act like I am over it or that it doesn't hurt me but it does
It hurts badly
My heart feels the weight and it weighs heavily on me
