I miss the memories, but not the people
I'm hurt, but trying to forgive
Do not know how to forgive or let it go
It hurts to acknowledge how much power I have allowed these people to have over me
I have allowed them to dictate my life and actions
I feel myself in a never-ending cycle of caring and not wanting to care
It feels weird knowing that the same amount of time I knew them
It's the same amount of time, I don't know them
And they do not know anything about me or my life
It's crazy how fast people can change
And how fast time changes over time
They have hurt me and have made me feel bitter
I want to let it go, but I can't let it go
I can't let it go because I know I can't control the situation
I can't understand their behavior or their thought process
I can't help but think that fandom is hurting anyone in the way it did
I never thought they could be so mean
I never knew the people I once knew could be so cruel to me
I do not get it, and I do not want to understand their behavior
My words seem to become lost, and my voice becomes shaking
Thinking of them
I cannot think of them without feeling angry and sad
It's interesting how much control my emotions and people can have on me
It's interesting how fast things can change
How fast everything changes in our lives
