Conversation's in the Dark (Merhayes)

The Come Back

"JUST GO HOME CORMAC! It's over. We're over." I yell in the parking lot of grey Sloan. I was crying and so was he. "Stop! I'm not going home. Meredith I'm here for you. Please." He yells back. "Cormac, we. Are. Done. Go home any leave me alone" I say very clear. "Fine whatever." He says storming off. It broke me to let him go. I love him but it just isn't a good idea for him to be with me right now. I am just miscarrying all 3 of our babies. I was hurt. He was hurt. I need time to breath. I get in my car sitting there for a minute before pulling out of the parking lot and going home. Cormac had no way of getting home but he could figure it out I didn't want to see him. Cormac did nothing wrong this is just what I do. I isolate and hide when I'm going through stuff. Miscarrying 3 babies is big stuff. I get home and go right to bed. I hear my phone buzz but I ignore it.
🖤Cormac :
Meredith I'm sorry.
- 9:19 pm

🖤Cormac :
Hey I know you're mad and hurt and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being such an ass. Meredith please. I need you.
- 9:22  pm

🖤Cormac :
I'm not going to sleep until I know you're okay. Meredith please, please just say ok.
-9:25 pm

🖤Cormac :
Fine. Good night Meredith, I really am sorry and I hope we can work this out.
-9;30 pm

🖤 Cormac :
Meet me for coffee tomorrow morning?
-9:34 pm

I pick up my phone and see all Cormac's text's. I put my phone on silent and go back to bed. What did I just do? Did I really just break up with the man who I'm in love with? Will he see I'm just hurt or is he going to be mad? I finally fall asleep.

CORMAC'S POV/:/:/

I can't let Meredith think I don't love her. I love her more than anything. Well that's a lie because I don't love her more than the boys or Abigail but I love her a lot. I set an alarm for 5:20 am so I can go out buy her some stuff and apologize.

My alarm goes off. I get up take a shower and get dressed. I go back into the bathroom that's attached to my bedroom and see the tooth brush Meredith used before we went to the hospital. I also see that green hoodie with the CH and my name on the back. God I miss Meredith. I should have woken up to her next to me. I should have been able to kiss her first thing with morning. I screwed up and I screwed up big time. I brush my teeth put on my cologne and then I pick up my hoodie. I told it. I run out the door because I'm going to be late and I cannot be late. I bring my hoodie with me and throw it on the passengers seat. Meredith should be sitting there. I should be holding her hand. I text Meredith one more time before putting my phone away.

Good morning.
- 6:01

💍🖤 Meredith:
- seen 6:01

At least I know she saw it. After driving for about 2 hours I get to my first destination. I walk into the store. "Welcome to Louis Vuitton, can I help you find anything." I'm greeted as I walk in by a young man. "No thank you I know exactly what I'm getting." I respond and smile. "Okay good luck." He says and I nod. "Are these two items all you're getting to say sir?" The cashier asks as I put them down softly on the counter. "Yes this is it." I say and then I pay. I get back to the car and put the bag by the hoodie on the passengers seat. Off to destination 2. "Hello, what can I get for you today?" Asks a man. "I need 100 red roses please." I say. He looks at me surprised. "100?" He says making sure he heard me right. I smile nod and say "100. Yes please." He smiles and say "I can do that." The man gives me the roses. "Thank you!" I say "sure thing." I pay him and go back to my car. I place the roses carefully next to the bag and hoodie and then I grab a piece of paper and a pen I found in my glove box.

Dear Meredith,
I know I messed up. I know that Louis Vuitton, my hoodie and 100 red roses doesn't make up for what I did. I'm sorry. I'm sorry about the babies. I'm sorry for being an ass. I'm sorry I wasn't what you needed and wanted. But the thing is Meredith, the come back. You see I could never let you go. No matter how many times I yell at to top of my lungs. No matter how many times I try to walk away. I'll always come back because. Because I'm always here to stay. Meredith I care about you. You are my everything. I want you in my life, in my boys life. I need you. No Matter how hard you push I will always have feelings for you. Mer this wasn't some fling. I fell for you. I have never fallen so fast or so hard for anyone in my life, not even Abigail. I'm not dating you because you are a world renowned surgeon or because you have a Catherine fox/Harper Avery award. I'm dating you because you make my heart stop when you smile. I'm dating you because when I look into your eye it feels like it's just you and I and nothing else matters. I'm dating you because you make me genuinely happy. Meredith I'm sorry and I hope you can forgive me. I'm here and I'm waiting for you. I'm not moving on because even if I do find someone I like, they will never make me feel the way you do. Keep my hoodie. Just- I don't know. I hope you can forgive me. I miss you.
                                                       - Cormac Hayes

I put the hoodie in the L.V bag and then I fold up my note and put it on the roses. I drive to Merediths house and leave the roses and bag right outside her door. I text her. I know she's not going to answer but I text her as I pull out of her drive way.

Go look outside.
-7:20 am

💍🖤 Meredith:
-seen 7:20 am

💍🖤 Meredith :
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(Meredith is typing.)
- 7:23 am