Pelacuran Cinta(boyxboy)

A/N - not an update

Answering the very very long long hiatus...

Hi everyone. This is me, Kir if anyone still remember. Today, I'd just explain why it took me so long to keep on updating this story. There are few reasons. Ada sebab kenapa aku rasa susah sangat nak update cerita ni.

1. I don't know how to end the story. As you can see banyak cerita aku tergantung, antaranya cerita Cinta Semalam. Salah satu sebabnya, aku tak tahu "how to end" the story. Especially with BL storyline. Although ianya hanyalah fiction. But the fiction macam mana pun, it has to have the sense of reality. Which aku sendiri masih confuse.

2. I sort of don't believe in romance or romantic genre, plotline anymore. I mean in a way bukannya aku tak suka romance or romantic storyline cuma to be honest watak Aizat to me, now looks too weak for me. Aku dulu buat cerita ni just you know for escapism. To write my feelings out. But now I dont want to be that sad and I dont know how to be that sad. The sad emotions worn out. I feel like Aizat is too weak. Sebab tu aku rasa macam malas nak sambung sebab for this reason.

3. Even kalau romance, aku suka kalau character tu  villain, berani, sanggup buat apa yang dia mahukan but for this specific story aku tak boleh buat. Although as a creative writer, patutnya aku boleh buat sebab its a piece of idea and work. But cerita ni as I said, sort of a diary to me, where I'd write my feelings. Sebab tu aku rasa it's not just sekadar cerita but old diary yang aku sendiri malu bila baca balik. Which is true.  

4. (This is the worst part) I now dont believe in love or romantic relationship.. sort of. Mungkin this is one of the factor kenapa aku tak dapat inspiration tu. Because sebelum buat cerita ni aku jenis naif tak pernah ada partner so I'd imagine having pure innocent relationship, dating, makan sama sama sort of. but then once aku explore the  relationship with few people. I felt different. Maybe because I'm tired of the feelings of fear of losing someone kot.  So end up aku rasa the best way to avoid feeling sad and heartbroken is by avoiding relationship. Avoiding having romantic imagination.

5.  Last but not least... I've lost my interest in writing. Although degree aku sekarang pun bidang penulisan. Aku sendiri rasa writing ni bosan. Maybe sebab aku takde inspiration, and motivation which partly true. But if I do, I'll make sure to write it properly. Even bahasa aku pun terabur. I need to master tatabahasa and so on. Which will take long time to master and to edit.

Aku start cerita ni tahun 2016. Thank you to all of you yang masih setia membaca and komen. It's nice knowing someone yang suka. But no worries. I'll try to habiskan as soon as possible. Let's hope the impossible be possible.

Love, :c