Cold Hearted

The Siren

Elena POV

Mal and I walked back to the hideout silently, she was definitely a little upset with me about the whole Harry thing since I didn't really do what she asked me to do, but then again... I couldn't blame myself for being curious! Especially when no one tells me anything, it makes me want to simply find out for myself, even if that means disobeying Mal and her advice. I mean come on, if she told me some things sometimes maybe I would've simply waited to hear why I should talk to the mystery man, but she would've said it wasn't important to me I know it! So yeah, I went against what she asked because I want my curiosity to be fulfilled, so what?

We walked up to the hideout as dusk began to fall, Mal still hadn't said a word and I was getting a little tired of it. So naturally, I simply asked,

"Mal? What's wrong?"

And boy, was I not prepared for what was about to be unleashed on me. She swiftly turned around to look at me as she picked up a rock to throw at the sign, but she stopped,

"What's wrong? Elle, come on! You didn't listen to me back there! I told you not to talk to that guy or even look at him and what do you do? Just that! He was obviously interested in you, you know what sort of guy Hook really is? Manipulative, cunning, psychotic, overbearing, loud, ruthless, obsessive, dangerous, I could go on Elle! And guess what, now he's interested in you! So now you are living bait for him and the crew, and what are you gonna do when he gets his fucking hands on you huh? Hit him with your purse?!"

I... I froze and looked at Mal with a dropped jaw, the shock of what she said at the end there hit me like a train. I felt myself tense up and tears begin to sting my eyes, I am... awfully emotionally vulnerable... so of course I was hurt!

"So he was right, the only reason you and the rest of the VKs talk for me and make decisions for me is because you guys don't think I can handle it! Hit him with my purse?! Mal I can still use my magic here, you can't! I didn't.... I didn't think you were like that! I-I thought you didn't see me as just some silly little princess when everyone else does! I thought you guys were a little different, my first normal human friends that aren't a part of my family and you all just give me your friendship for what?! Because you feel bad for me?!"

I was letting stray tears fall now, I began feeling overwhelmed and frazzled rather quickly as I began to spiral into a thought process I didn't want to fall down. She quickly shook her head and seemed to soften up again as I think she regretted saying what she did... I at least hope she did,

"Elle that's not it, we just don't want anything bad happening to you! You are so... beautifully innocent, we don't want anything or anyone ruining that for you! And why would we feel bad for you?"

I looked away from her and simply looked up and closed my eyes... my breath grew shakier as I reminisced about times I wish would become happy memories of the past by now, but no... they still pain me,

"Because I barely have anyone else... I have the spirits, my aunt, my mom when she decides to stop by, but I... I lost my best friend years ago so I-I thought maybe s-someone could f-fill the void a-and yet s-since then i-it hasn't been t-the same... you're p-probably right Mal... I-I can't h-handle anything o-on my o-own"

I could barely stay without sobbing now, the memories seem too fresh to replay without getting emotional. Mal quickly walked over to me and tried to comfort me, but nothing in my being wanted her to. I looked at her and shoved her away, I knew who I wanted to comfort me. He comforts me whenever I feel this way, so I simply looked at Mal after shoving her away and sighed,

"Just... leave m-me alone f-for a second"

I struggled to get out before looking down the alleyway we originally went down and ran for it. I ignored her yelling for me to come back as I pulled off a glove and began making a snow trail so I could find my way back, but I just had to see Nokk. I had to, he's the best friend I have now, he was there for me the day this started after all... I sure hope he can make it through the barrier.