Cold Hearted

Forgiveness

Harry POV

Good gods... I am fucking sore ta say the least.

Even as I wake up I can feel it, I'm gonna need ta stretch at some point today because this is just insanity. But let's put that ta the side... because for the first time ever..... I'm waking up beside my fiancée. Not my girlfriend..... my fiancée! And that alone is a bright and wonderful reason ta smile, especially because I think it was a surprise for both of us as I most certainly didn't wake up yesterday thinking I was going ta full-on propose, but the day went the way it did and I'm honestly not mad about my decision whatsoever! We're gonna take our time with it, only tie the knot when we're both ready which is at least after we graduate I'm sure, but we have plenty of time ta talk about it and such for sure.

And by the way... I think Miss Ellie slept absolutely marvelously, and still is at that.

I chuckled as I peered down at her, still in the exact position she fell asleep in as she fell asleep so hard, and whispering little bits and pieces of a little dream she was having. She was smiling and even giggling a little bit... seriously, how on earth have I managed ta score the cutest little lassie on the entire earth? I simply... just love watching her in such a happy little state, giggling a bit in her sleep as she flinches around a bit, I don't even think she knows how animated she is when she's sleeping, and somehow that makes it even cuter... for the love of the gods I feel so damn lucky ta even be looking down at her right now, my lovely little fiancée...

I let out a long sigh of pure happiness... looking down at her and adjusting a bit so I could feel like I'm holding her a bit more as she giggled a bit and wiggled around some... inevitably making me chuckle purely out of adoring awe. This... This is pure perfection right 'ere, no doubt about it. Soon she grew more animated, her eyelashes fluttering more and more as I am absolutely convinced she's going ta wake up soon, but the moment let me think about last night, yesterday in general of course as it was so chaotic, but specifically last night as it had got me thinking a little bit...

Elena is the most curious little lassie I have ever met, even the most curious person I've ever met, and while I was... giving her some extra love per se by trying out those kisses in a few new places, I wondered something that hasn't exactly come ta mind yet. I did tell her about what I called "lovemaking", but... but how long will it take before she begins ta ask more questions about it? And why am I wondering this now? Well, I wonder that now because we're engaged and from what I told her, she thinks it's a purely love-based thing which for us it would be, and now... I'm honesty waiting for her to innocently ask why we haven't done such a thing yet... and what will I say? What will I even do at that? I mean... I guess I'll figure it out once that inevitably happens. I mean I'm not freaked out by the question, but I'm just working out what I'll have ta say since that's really the odd part. Part of me is still a little shaky on the thought of being in that intimate space with someone, the other part of me... feels quite alright with the idea since it would be with her specifically. How on earth could I be freaked out if it's her that I'm making love to? I reckon I have more time ta think about that, especially seeing as the little lassie herself is beginning ta stir.

So as I do every morning if I wake up before her, even if she isn't conscious enough ta feel it, I gave her a soft little kiss on the forehead which she seemed ta react to as she squeaked ever so slightly, opening her eyes just as I parted from her forehead and smiling a bit as I watched it register through her bright little doe eyes that looked up at me with such a happy little glimmer to them, making me smile right off the bat as one of her hands reached up to my shoulder so she could pull herself up a bit to be closer to me,

"Good morning Harrison... hehe you're still so warm"

Elena giggled out, making me obviously warmer as her mere little giggle makes me a blushing idiot. She snuggled up to me and hummed with content the whole time, seemingly just wanting to be close so she can feel how warm I am... and I simply smiled as I took in every little bit of physical touch that she gave me. It used to be something I feared, now it's something I love and honestly crave at times. I chuckled a bit and adjusted my arms around her again to make sure she could stay comfortable,