Amelia had everything- family, friends, a promising future- the sky was the limit. But just like that everything was taken from her. One moment she's planning her high school graduation party the next she's laying on a therapist's couch. It was as i...
I clamped a hand over my mouth to keep from having my gasps be heard. Had he really said what I thought?
". . . What if I am?. . ."
At this point my chest was heaving uncontrollably. It was as if the air was not fully reaching my lungs and I was drowning. Drowning in my own thoughts and doubts. Surely Elijah was not telling the truth to Seth just now. How could he possibly love someone like me?
All this time he knew about my trauma, my blackouts- even Mia and yet he still claimed to love me. Why? I have given him no reason to. In fact I've given him countless reasons as to why he shouldn't.
I quickly pulled away from the door, still struggling to get my breathing under control. My hand dropped down to my chest, fighting back the ache in my heart. How could I be so stupid? All this time I believed that having a real relationship would make me feel more normal. But Mia was right. There's nothing normal about me. About us. We're simply not meant to be involved with people like this. Someone always ends up getting hurt in the end. And apparently, this time, it was me.
Amongst the pain, I felt bits of anger coursing throughout. It wasn't just the idea of being deceived that hurt me. It was the sick, twisted part of me that still longed for the sweet and loving touch of him. The way he looked at me all those times had made me think it was real.
I couldn't comprehend what was worse. Knowing that it was all a lie. Or wishing that it were true. Each stolen glance hit me like a punch to the gut. Shit. All those things he said to me during those restless nights together, it meant nothing.
I didn't want to reminisce about the past anymore. Not when it hurts like this. I needed to find my focus like Mia had said. I made the grave mistake of letting my emotions take a hold of me and ended up getting burned for it. Seth had mentioned before about Elijah bringing me to New York.
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"What's in New York?" I asked quietly.
Mia spoke low. Her voice sounded like it was filled with venom.
Infernum.
"What? What's Infernum?"
Silence. It was as if Mia had hung up on me. And, I was, yet again, left alone with my own thoughts.
"I need to get back to the office. I need to contact the others and Aralyn," Seth said.
My chest tightened. Aralyn.
Oh God! How could I have let her get swept up in all this insanity? What kind of a friend am I? If Seth really was just like Elijah- a tracker wrapped up in a cape of lies- I would never have let her get involved in this shit.
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