What Should Have Been From The Beginning

The Plan of Action

MEREDITH'S POV

'I need to ask you something.' Derek said to me as we stood up and my arms were wrapped around his waist and I felt his hand play with my hair. He looked into my eyes promoting a comforting but anxious mood. I was nervous as to what he was going to ask me and the whole few seconds we were in this moment, I couldn't take my mind off what I had seen on the screen. I could slowly feel my face go from smiling to having a frightened expression.

'Ok but I'm nervous.' I told him hoping he would catch on to the hint that I had seen what was on the computer.

'Well, please don't be startled and I hope you'll say yes.'

My stomach was well and truly in my throat now and I knew if I had spoken I wouldn't have gotten any of my words out. I could feel my palms starting to get clammy and I felt as if I had beads of sweat running down my forehead. Derek started talking once again after grabbing hold of my hands in his and running his thumb side to side on the top of my hand.

'When I was out, I went and did something that I'm not sure how you will react to. I spoke to the chief and I got you back on the programme. Do you want to work at the hospital again?'

I let out a subtle sigh knowing that it wasn't going to be a life-changing question.

'Are you kidding me? Of course I want to-, oh wait. Is she still going to be working there?'

'I honestly don't know but I don't want that to stop you. If she is we will deal with it. What she thinks of us, or what anyone thinks of us for that matter, doesn't bother me. And it shouldn't bother you either. We are happy. You're the love of my life and someone's opinion of the bravest thing you did is not going to change the way I feel about you. Do you hear me? It doesn't matter what anyone thinks. All that matters is that you and I are together.'

I loved how whatever he said made me feel nothing but comfort. His words brought serenity to my thoughts and feelings. He was absolutely correct but I didn't want our relationship to affect my work in any way. He looked into my eyes and squeezed me tighter when he realised that I was overthinking. I felt Derek's hands move from gripping mine to being rested onto my back, specifically my shoulder blades. His arms were wrapped under my armpits and his hands lay gently but made me feel extremely secure.

'Of course. That is all that matters. I'm with you and you're with me. Thankyou.'

He listened to my answer before chuckling and in a cheeky, flirtatious way he replied with music to my ears.

'I love you Meredith Grey.'

I grabbed him by the cheeks, brought myself closer to his body again tempting and teasing him by rubbing myself against him as I went up on my tiptoes to kiss him. I lodged a passionate, intense kiss onto his lips and felt his tongue slide into my mouth. I returned the act and decided to back away before things went any further.

'Do we seriously have to wait until Italy?' Derek begged me after he had felt me move away, hoping I would give him the answer he was longing for.

'Yes. Derek Shepherd don't try any funny business with me?' I joked through a laugh. He grabbed me tightly by the waist, picked me up off the floor and placed me onto him so that my legs were wrapped around his waist. With his arms holding me up and my body being so intimately close to his, he realised what I had said.

'Erm, excuse me? Funny business? I seem to recall you being the one to throw that kiss onto me.'

'And I seem to recall you being the one to put your tongue down my throat.' I fired back.

He walked over to the sofa with me still hugging onto his torso and my arms around his neck. He launched me onto the sofa so that I was on my back and he put himself right over the top of me holding himself up with his arms and kissed me, again using his tongue as a gesture and biting my lip as he came away, letting me know that he was pissed for making him wait.

'Well I guess, I'll just have to put up with the pain of waiting one more night.' He informed me and scoffed, in a nice way, as he walked into the kitchen to get spoons. As I watched him from the back, walk away with the little strut he does and pulling his shirt and jumper from out of his jeans, making him more comfortable, I couldn't help but realise how lucky I was and how grateful I was to have him back in my life. I had everything I ever wanted right in front of me and now adding one more thing to the list I wanted, when I watched him.

He walked back into the room holding two spoons in one hand and then two glasses in the other.

'But first, here stand up.'

For the second time this evening I was curious about him and his plans. I did as I was told though and made my way over to the other side of the room where he stood waiting. He slid one arm around my waist and used the other to turn on the stereo. One of our songs started to play and he cranked up the sound before grabbing my hand and getting into a waltz position.

'Oh, so Derek Shepherd has learnt to dance?' I joked and he laughed. I placed my head in the crook of his neck, feeling his warm breathe on my cheek and his fingers move throughout mine, securing our hands.

'So our flight is at 9 am tomorrow and we will arrive at about 9pm Italy time. Everything is booked. Hotel, flight, transfers, activities.' He whispered into my ear and giggled when he said activities, knowing fine well what we would be doing the whole time. 'I can't wait to be wrapped up in white silk sheets with you.'

I took in our presence in each others space and acknowledged what he was saying but didn't reply as he knew I felt the same way since I curled into him even more than before and kissed his neck.

'Oh and we are going for a week since I still have time off and I got you the time off too.'

I pulled out off his chest, looked him in the eyes, smiled, laid my face back into his neck and said,

'We are going to be tired after a weeks worth.'