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"you're okay, you're okay," you mumble as you take him to your arms. you caress his back to calm him, kissing his temple.
he just hangs to dear life as much as he's hanging onto you. breathing heavily, he started pacing his breaths with your heartbeat. it calmed him, it always did.
he closed his eyes and almost immediately, tears starts flowing out.
you wipe them, unbothered by your own. it was that time of the year again. he overworks himself to the point where he can't breathe, and you can't help but cry because you can't help him with it.
you knew with your knowledge you didn't.
but you were the only medicine youngjae needed in order to live another day. you were the only one to keep him going.
you sway youngjae side wards, as if it helped. you breathe in out to help him, calm him.
"i'm okay," youngjae finally muttered the word he always did after calming down. "i'm okay," he repeated, but he had no plans to break apart from your warmth. he pulled you closer with his little strength.
"youngjae.. we talked about this already." you mumble, your voice cracking.
"i know, i know.. i'm sorry." this time, he was the one to wipe your tears away. "i can't promise i won't do it again, but i'll do it less," he smiles reassuringly at you. you know you can't stop him anyways, so you just trusted him.
you nod and hug him once again, burrowing your face to the crook of his neck.
"lets go to bed, that's enough for today," you dragged him to your shared bed and tucked him in.
"i love you," youngjae mutters as he spoons you. he plays with your fingers and smiles at you. you sigh in contentment, taking in his scent that always helped you sleep.
"i love you too, youngjae." you shut your eyes with a smile.
"i'm sorry if i'm always a pain in the ass," he mumbles after a few minutes which made you jump. you faced him and he too, was shocked. "i thought you're already asleep?"
"who told you that?" you dodged his question. "who told you you're a pain in the ass, youngjae? i'm going to fight them with my own hands," you glared at the wall, demanding an answer from youngjae but all you got were his chuckles.
he pulls you down to hug you but you were still agitated.
"no one did, y/n. stop that," he gets your clenched fists and intertwines his hands with it instead. "i just thought about that, maybe there were times you're getting tired of me, but still you stayed." he finally says, and smiles down at you.
your face instantly melts, giving him a face of reassurance.
"no, youngjae. i never did, and will ever get tired of you. okay? i want you to stop worrying about those kind of this and whenever you need me, i want you to come to me. is that a deal?" youngjae just smiles at your words.
you know you didn't convince the man so you nudge his stomach to insist an answer from him. he laughs his iconic laugh and finally gives in.
"okay okay," he says between his laughter. "that i can promise," then he hugs you again.
"okay then, you promised! its a sealed deal," you lightheartedly hugged him back, losing into your drowsiness and melting into youngjae's voice.
