Lightning *Fred Weasley love*

Sleepless night

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Fred held me as I silently cried on the steps of the porch

I let him read the letter after me, and while he did I buried my face into his chest
"I wish I got to know her"

He rubbed my back "I know Love"

We stayed outside for an hour before Ron came to find us

"I'm sorry to interrupt, but Harry is back" he said

Fred and I got up, and walked back inside the house. Mrs.Weasley gave me a potion that took my pain away earlier and since my back wasn't broken I was able to move around when the pain was gone

We walked into the kitchen, surrounded by Order members
My dad sat at the head of the table and motioned for me to sit on his right side, Harry was on his left

Harry told them about what happened on his end with Voldemort, and how Bellatrix disappeared when he showed up

"I tried so hard to get to her" he said looking at my dad and I

He just put his hand on his shoulder and squeezed

The meeting ended two hours after it began, most of it was talk about how they were going to keep Harry and I safe during the next school year. We finished our OWLS so we weren't needing to finish the last week we had in our 5th year
I wouldn't have gone even if I had to

I almost lost my dad there is no way I'm leaving right now

The order members gave us their condolences, and told us a funeral would be held for her the follow day. They were burying her next to Lily and James in Godric's Hollow

The order cleared out, except Lupin. Hes stayed by my dad's side since we arrived home. My dad lost her, but so did everyone else who knew her

Fred stayed with me that night, though neither of us slept any. He stayed up with me, running his hands through my hair and kissing my forehead every so often
He left only once, to go get me a new bracelet. He wouldn't tell me where he goes to get them or how much money it cost, all I know about this new one is that it won't fall apart when my emotions are high and won't break if the killing curse is thrown my way

I told him he needs one too, now that things are getting more dangerous but he said he took the necklace that I gave him years ago, and had it made to do the same thing mine does. We can now communicate twice a day, once in the morning and once at night

He blames himself for not being there for me while we were fighting for our lives, so to help with that he improved the bracelet and necklace to allow an extra communication

"Something like that won't ever happen again I'll be there next time I promise" he said kissing my hand and then my wrist

The next day we all apparated to Godric's Hollow to bury my mother

I held onto my dad's hand while they used magic to do the ceremony. Protection spells were placed around us so Muggles wouldn't see, and death eaters wouldn't show up

The service was small and quick, I felt hollow during the ceremony
I didn't cry today, but listening to what everyone said about her made me wish I had a reason to cry
Her letter was beautiful but it left me wanting to have actually known her. To have that relationship that everyone here talked about

  "She was intelligent, could have easily been a Ravenclaw" said Lupin

  "She had a smile that reached the whole room" said Kingsley

  "She never missed a game of mine, and always cheered the loudest" my dad said "she was a friend to all and enemy to none before all of this"

When everyone looked towards me to say something, I just shook my head. Fred held me close and whispered "I'm so sorry Love, you don't have to say anything we all understand"

Harry left our group and walked over to see his mum and dad's graves

  "Harry" I said walking towards him

  "From the way everyone talked about her, this would be the perfect spot to be buried. She sounded incredible and I wish we had gotten to grow up with them"

I hugged him tightly "me too"

His father was my godfather, the same way my father is his. Our families were meant to be in each other's lives for life, we were supposed to grow up together. My life was spared with my dad's quick thinking, but Harry wasn't as lucky

  "Can you imagine how our childhood would have gone" I said smiling "I imagine us never fighting"

  "I wouldn't say never" he said smiling too "I'm sure you would have done something to get on my nerves"

I pushed him "we still found each other, we still became close. I knew from the moment I met you that we were going to be friends for a long time"

He hugged me tightly and we walked back to our group together

A week had gone by, Fred stayed with me everyday like Lupin stayed with my dad
Harry stayed too, he was offered a room at our house and he took it
Lupin was as well, but he was reluctant because of his condition, though it bothered none of us he wanted to be alone during that time. We compromised and he decided that a few days before and after he would stay at his house, the rest he would be here

We spent most of our days listening to the two of them reminiscing on their Hogwarts experiences

Their stories were filled with laughter and whenever my mother was involved my dad smiled, we are both healing from that tragic day

  "I won't ever forget the smile on her face the day we beat her ex boyfriend's team" my dad said smirking "she was so proud"

  "If it wasn't for your mother Electra, your dad would have gotten expelled countless times. She was always quick to think of an excuse for him" Lupin added "your mother and Harry's mother had a lot to deal with having those two as their partners"

  "You were just glad to get some help finally" my dad said laughing "Remus tried to control us when he was assigned prefect by Dumbledore. I'm sure that was his plan, but Remus gave up with that lost cause"

  "Lily and Nova whipped you gits into shape our last year" he said smiling "they were always on my side it was nice"

I still wake up from nightmares of Barty Crouch touching me, but when I do wake Fred is always there to comfort me
It always takes me a minute to calm down, the feeling of Fred touching me after one of those night terrors makes it feel too real
I know it hurts him deeply but he would never let me know
  "I'm going to kill him" he promised me one of the many sleepless nights
I knew he would too, for everything he's put me through
  "I would risk my life to protect you"
Images of my mum's dead body entered my mind
I could feel myself hyperventilate

  "I don't want to lose you...things are getting bad and they are going to get worse please don't leave me" I begged sitting up in the bed "I'm terrified to-to-t"

  "I know..." he pulled me in as close as he could, I laid my head on his beating chest "I'm terrified to lose you too"

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