Lightning *Fred Weasley love*

End Game Part 19

Sunlight entered the room and woke me up from my tranquil sleep

Christmas Day had arrived
But this was unlike any we've had before
We weren't with our family and everyone was scattered
A war was going on instead of Christmas gifts being passed around
Lights everywhere were kept off instead of being strung around houses
Kids would be home from school and possibly not returning
And this was the first one I would have without my dad...
I didn't look up at their stars last night, for the first time in a while I didn't need the night sky for comfort

Fred's eyes were still closed so I got up from his chest and stretched my body out on the end
My front paw was still in pain but I stretched it slightly out too, holding back from making any noises to wake him
I looked at his body
He didn't look thinner like I did, on the contrary he looked stronger
I noticed last night his weights he told me about where back out of his closest
He's been keeping up his strength
His eyes were dark underneath though, I wonder how many times a night he normally would toss and turn and then eventually stay up instead of sleep
I wonder if last night was the first night he truly slept too...

I looked at his face
His beautiful face
I can't stay
I have to go back to find Ron, Harry and Hermione

I looked at his chest and how it raised slowly again
How badly I wished I could stay...

I made my way off the bed and transformed momentarily back into myself, just so I could remove the locket from my neck and place it on his bedside table

I can't stay
I can't stay
I can't stay

I had to keep reminding myself of that
If I stayed even for a few minutes longer I wouldn't go back for my friends
I would stay here where I felt safe and comforted

I noticed last night, but now it's even more potent the smell of bourbon fireworks and wood burning
I looked at the shelf closest to the door and I could see a small bottle of a pink liquid sitting on a shelf with photos of us and the beater's bats I got for him
Amortentia?

Does he sleep with it so he can be reminded of my smell?
I wish I had a bottle of that on my journey too...being so close to him I realized how much more he smelled of bourbon
He must be drinking a lot more

I couldn't worry too much over that
I have a job to do
To help Harry find Horcruxes and to help him defeat Voldemort

I could imagine what would happen if I stayed though

I would stay awake until Fred woke up
He would see me and I would transform back into my human form
  "Hi Freddie" I would say

He would hold me closely to his body and we both would cry into each other's embrace
He would kiss me and I would finally be able to kiss him back
I would tell him how much I loved him and he would do the same for me
I would tell him what happened on my journey so far and he would express how worried he's been for me
He would see my injuries and would help me shower the blood out of my hair and help me heal my broken arm
We would smile again
For the first time in a long time it would be genuine
He wouldn't let me go and I wouldn't want to go

And that's why I have to leave

I wrote him a new letter and placed it beside his locket

Dear Freddie,
I'm sorry I couldn't stay
As hard as it has been to be without you, leaving you again without saying goodbye has been the hardest thing to do.
I wouldn't want to leave if I stayed until you woke up, I would want to stay in your arms and be held by you all day and night
I wouldn't want to go find a way to defeat Voldemort
I wouldn't want to go back to Ron Harry and Hermione
I would want to stay here forever
In our room, in our bed, in each other's embrace
But I can't right now
We will be together again soon, I hope
I found your locket, took some luck to get it but it's back where it belongs
I enjoyed watching the memories you put in it, seeing things from your point of view was breathtaking and seeing memories I wasn't aware of was wonderful too
Please don't be mad at me for not waiting to say goodbye
I know it'll hurt to see this letter and not to see me instead...it's hurting me now to write it
I just...can't right now
I had to go
Don't think a day hasn't gone by where I wondered what our lives would have been if this wasn't going on
A life where we could be in peace
But that is the life we are fighting for, and I know our paths will cross when it's time
Stay safe please
I love you forever and always

With Love,
Electra Weasley

I kissed the letter and then I looked at him one more time
I want to kiss him
I know I'll wake him if I do
I'm sure of it
But I can't help myself I want to feel his lips on mine

I gently pushed on our bed and kissed his lips
I felt him kiss me back but before he could wake up I transformed into Vulpes and jumped off the bed
I landed on my broken arm and winced out

The noise I made woke him up immediately
He jumped from his sleep and I could hear his breathing become erratic
I ran under the bed
I should have just left

I felt him move around on our bed
  "Electra..?" He called out

I wanted to answer him so badly but I stayed quiet
I felt the bed shift again, this time it shifted towards the nightstand where my letter and the locket were

I know he finished reading it because he jumped from our bed and ran straight for the door
  "Electra?!" He yelled

My heart was tearing up
Fred

He ran back into his room and I heard another set of feet run in behind him
George

  "Whats wrong??" He asked nervously

Another pair of feet came rushing into the room
Lee

  "Everything ok??" He asked concerned

  "Electra was here, I thought I felt something laying on my chest last night I should have woken up" he said agitated "she left before I woke up, it must have been seconds because I could have sworn I felt her kiss me"

  "It would have been hard for her to leave if you were awake, maybe impossible" George said sitting on the bed now "it's important for her to do what Dumbledore instructed them to do. We just have to wait until they complete it" he said trying to be calm

  "Fuck!" Fred yelled "I don't care about any of that, I just want her to be safe and to be here with me...it's been months since I've been that close to her..."

My heart was crushed
I shouldn't have stayed this long

  "She will be safe" Lee said

  "Why is there blood on the bed then" Fred said