Lightning *Fred Weasley love*

Year 5 Part 10

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Weeks, months went by without speaking to Fred

Ever since the encounter with him and Angelina, I've been avoiding him

There is a hollow spot in my heart, where he used to be
But that spot will stay hollow, always meant for him to fill

Things with Cedric have been good, he's the "perfect" boyfriend
Buying me flowers
Chocolates
Candies
Never disagreeing with me
Never picking a fight
Even going as far as to let me win a game of quidditch, which he denies doing but I saw his hand closer to the snitch than Harry's was

But I can't help but find it all boring

I miss the passion that my last relationship had
We slept together, it wasn't romantic in setting but he was gentle and kind
The first time we had sex was in the prefect bathroom, second time was in hogsmeade
He was by no means bad at sex, but his touch felt wrong
Why do I feel like I'm cheating on Fred
I never wanted to be intimate with anyone but Fred, I thought I should try to be with Cedric physically and emotionally but there was no spark
Speaking of, i haven't seen him and Angelina in the same room since that day too.
I think it's time to talk to him
Tonight

But before I could get my hopes up, I ended up in another detention from Umbridge

We were in class today, and she dared talk about Azkaban and how someone escaped recently and tried bad mouthing him
Knowing it would cause me to stir

"Is there an issue Miss.Black? Your father is a wanted criminal and should be remembered as one"

My fist were throbbing from how tightly I held them

"Fuck you"
That was all I needed to say before she told me to meet her for detention

Harry hadn't been in class, I'm not sure why but it's lucky. He would have been in detention with me tonight, missing practice that Angelina ripped me a new one for, I'm sure she has just been waiting to yell at me about anything since school started
But someone else was missing practice from what I heard
Fred
His year had defense class last, I over heard Lee talking about how he started with Umbridge, I'm not sure why but maybe we can talk after on our way to the hospital wing

I left Hermione Harry and Ron in the common room, as I started heading for my detention. I debated waiting for Fred, but I haven't been able to get the courage to talk to him yet
What if he hates me
I shouldn't have let us go so long without speaking

When I got there, he wasnt there yet so I sat down and waited for our detention to start. I did arrive early, hoping to finish with enough time to show up for practice. Umbridge was sitting in her chair, tapping her quill on her desk

I was about to pull homework out to do while I wait, but then Fred raced in, a minute before he would have been late

"Nice of you to join us Mr.Weasley" she got up and started grabbing paper for us to "write" on

"Yeah well Im here now aren't I" he said not making eye contact with me

I took my eyes from him, and stared down at the desk I was sitting at
Umbridge put the blood quill on my desk when I arrived and just now brought me paper

I was told to write down my old phrase "I will obey" and Fred was told to write down "I will be obedient"

An hour later, our hands dripping in blood she finally let us go

She smirked at us while we collected our things and left her office
Fred was walking faster than me, so I called out to him

"Hey Fred" I said running up to his side

He looked at me, his eyes looked sad and he had bags under them

  "Are you ok...?" I asked touching his arm

He pulled his arm away
   "I'm fine"

I grabbed his hand
   "Are you though?"

He glared at me
   "Why would you care? How's Cedric?"

I stopped in the hallway
   "Can't we be civil?" I wanted to cry, but I've done too much of that this year I refuse to do it again "I miss having you in my life"

  "That's not fair" he said

  "What's not?" I said walking closer

He stepped away from me
   "You can't pull that I miss you shit now, I've missed you for MONTHS and now you want to talk?"

He got into my face and I stared right back at him
I let things go this long without talking to him, I wouldn't back down no matter how mad he got
I had to get this off of my chest

  "But I do, it took me a while to learn my mistake but I do miss you"

I'm trying my best to not lose my temper and talk calmly to him, it wouldn't help either of us if we're both agitated

   "You have no idea how much I've missed you" he said staring into my eyes "do they turn gold anymore?"

   "No..." I said looking down "at least uhm Cedric hasn't mentioned anything"

He grabbed my chin and made me look up to him
   "Electra, since we've been apart, not one single day has gone by without you on my mind and not a single day will go by without me loving you. I will be in love with you for the rest of my life, and it hurts to know that I never got a chance to defend myself and talk to you about what happened"

His hand was warm on my chin, and he started to use his thumb to caress my cheek. I couldn't help but lean my head into his touch

  "I love you, yesterday today tomorrow always...I have suffered every day without you. I even got this detention and missed practice because I heard you got one and I hoped to be close to you again. Even if it was in a miserable and painful detention. I didn't want you to face it alone"

He took his hand from my face and ripped part of his under shift off and started to bandage my bloody hand

He pulled it to his lips and kissed where the mark will scar

I was speechless, I didn't know the right words to say. He is right I didn't give him a chance to explain anything I just jumped to conclusions and ruined what we had

I could feel tears escape my eyes
He noticed and wiped them away and went back to holding my face

  "I don't care how long it takes, I will wait for you. And if Cedric is the one for you, then I will let you go but I want to hear you say that, I want you to admit that Cedric means more to you than me"

With that he let go of my face and walked away, leaving my heart shattered again

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