Just them in me

Precious

New stirred as he felt the morning seep into him and slightly opened his eyes in the hope to confirm he still has time to sleep, but smiled when he saw his boyfriend juggling around the dressing mirror.

"Oh... You are up...?" Tay asked with a blank expression and New's face fell.... "Could you check on the toast for me, I think it's burnt..."

New moved the blanket off him lazily and picked his mobile before heading towards the kitchen. "Also, New, Don't forget to pay the electricity bill today, It's the last day... " Tay called out and New groaned internally. He threw the burnt toast out and started making new ones

Tay came out into the living room in search of his wallet.... "Have you seen my wallet? and by the way, I got a message yesterday that Mom's life insurance has lapsed,  Why don't you call them and ask about the process to revive it...." 

Tay then moved towards the kitchen top on which New placed a plate of toast and scrambled eggs, Tay eyed it before stuffing the toast into his mouth and mumbling... "I am getting late again... Hopefully I won't be the last to reach..." Tay then hurriedly put on the shoe and stepped out slamming the door too hard that for New, it felt like a storm has just passed him once it's resonating quitted down around him.

He sat there at the kitchen counter with left over Toast, untouched eggs and half drank coffee. He was being crushed, that's what it felt like... New sniffled as a saline drop ran down his right cheek. 

New came back to present by his alarm beeping. He turned it off and went to shower. Once he was freshened and dressed up, he made sure he finished Toast, eggs and the coffee, the coffee Tay claims he can't survive without but never takes more than two sips. 

New felt empty inside as he locked there door, just like the apartment infront of him he felt hallow. As he sat on the bus to traverse to work he pulled out his mobile and typed in.

New: Tay

New: I can't do this anymore.

New: I love you

New: So much that I need to let you go now

New: I will move my things this weekend

New: By the way, It's P'Muk's birthday today, Don't forget to wish her. 

As soon as New sent  those words, he felt relieved, like he is flying again, It would be a lie to say he is not hurting. He is devastated, infact it felt like he is dying, but without regrets, without remorse, he might have to be a dead person now till his body gives up on him but atleast he won't be suffocating, he is done suffocating. 

Tay: What? 

Tay's reply came after around 20 minutes. If it was the old Tay, he would have immediately called New, ask him where he was, chase him with sweets and desserts until finally New gives up and smiles. But Tay now is not that Tay, and the reply only made New chuckle hopelessly.

When New didn't reply he got another message. 

Tay: Let's talk tonight

New left Tay on read again and went into his day calming himself with a long breath. 

That night, it has been hours after Sun Set when the door opened and Tay stepped in to his favorite smell of Pasta.  He saw New with his apron in the kitchen and went in. After observing New for a whole five minutes, Tay stepped in and stood by the counter beside New before calling for him smoothly.... "New....!!!"

"Uuuu..." New replied not lifting his head up as if he can't take his eyes off the pasta or stop stirring it otherwise it might just burn. 

"Can we talk?" Tay jumped into the topic at once.