Just them in me

The Confession

"Will you come out with me... for a ride...?" New asked skeptically as Tay was packing up to leave for the day. Tay doesn't ride with New anymore, both have become too busy to do that now a days. 

Tay looked at New surprised. It's been long and tiring day and he thought New would want a good rest. But it seemed like New has to clear his mind first. Still Tay didn't want to go with him. Being away from New was hard for him, New had always been by his side, but in these past few months it has become really difficult for them to catch up and it hurt Tay. Hurt him more than he could put in words. Not having New by his side made him realize how important the guy is to him and how head over heals he has fallen. Hence he finally decided to let New be, because if they get anymore closer he is not sure he can maintain his straight façade, but now New is asking him out for a ride, would it look normal if he just declines it. 

Tay looked into the younger guys eyes, they looked like they are pleading, and he nodded not knowing he is and before he knew they are driving off in to the city.

"Where are we going...?" Tay asked after a 10 minutes of horrible silence in the car. New smiled at the question and shrugged... "No where..."

The silence took over the air in the polar(New's car) again and it was stirring Tay's insides like a whirl, he needed a distraction. He opened his tab and started playing the game that he paused last night.

"Who are you playing with...?" New asked after a couple of minutes.

"No one.." Tay's answer was crisp and sounded like he just wanted to mock New back. 

The game didn't last long, Tay lost it soon enough and somehow he doesn't want to start another game. So he kept staring at the tab acting like he is still playing when his minded decided to replay a scene from earlier.

"You are acting weird, What's wrong...?" Off asked once Tay stepped out of the reharsal room.

"No Peng, Nothing is wrong, I am good..." Tay tried to shrug but Off is his Peng afteral.

"Tay!, You know right, that you can't lie to me... I can say when something is wrong with you and i also can see that it's because of New, you have been deliberately avoiding him... Did you fight again?... But even if it's the case you wouldn't avoid him, you would just bicker and It's only you who is avoiding him... he has been trying to reach out to you since yesterday... So speak up because I am not buying your 'I am good...' nonsense..." Off pressed again leaving Tay no choice.

Tay sighed lumping down into the sofa in the waiting room. It's just two of them there, so he decided to speak up... "I am not avoiding him Off... I am trying to get over him..."

"What?!" Off's eyes constricted as he took in the words.

"We have always been together, And I guess somewhere in the process I started to believe he is the one.... I didn't think of the day we would be apart ever and so i never thought what he is actually to me... But these past few months without him felt like torture, like i am being punished, though I am fine during the day, once i get back home alone all that my mind could think, is him... How is he? Did he eat sweets for breakfast again today? Would he be missing me? Will his new series be a success?, Complete random thoughts. I thought it through and concluded that I indeed like him. However it's not fair to any of us, we are friends and there is no way i am going to ruin it for any of you two... Which is why i just need some distance from him, so i can get over these crazy thoughts..." Tay spoke slower and clearer than Off could ever remember him speak, like he is weighing each and every word.

Off just leaned back relaxing.... "Finally..."

Tay looked at him frowning... "What do you mean?"

"It means I have been waiting for you to realize and accept your feeling for years now... thank the god for finally you did... But i suggest you to first talk to New... what if he feels the same... what if you are wrong to think that you need to get over him...." Off leaned forward again to observe his friend's expressions.