Goodbye is Forever (COMPLETED)

Prologue

My heart is pounding, and I start to breath faster. I close my eyes and bend over my knees.  My heart want to shout something. I felt the blow of the wind that reaches my face...  

With tears going down my face, I could do nothing but sit cross-legged on the sandy shore and stare at the horizon in front of me. With my car, Pinky, beside me. Waves of a deep bluish white  slowly move before going away, only to repeat the process in a cycle that caused droplets of  water to touch  my bare feet full of sand.

I don't even know how I successfully parked my car here in a sandy ocean.
Beyond those amazing waves was something even more beautiful and breath-taking, that's the sunset. Beautiful groups of coral, purple, turquoise, and a orange blended together to create a sight so surprising it swept me away from all of my pains and worries, just like the waves moving over seashells and getting them in a  seconds. My last teardrop fell into  the soft brownish sand and a warm feeling of safety and satisfaction overwhelmed me as the sun dipped down below the horizon. The ocean in front of me was my home, where I belonged, a place to escape from my life away from the pains I'm taking. Nothing could ever take that feeling away. Never..

As I look at the ocean, I thought many different things between my heart and mind... I  thought all the things that I want to say and I can say it's all from my heart. With that, I started to overthink again...

Alam mo yung sinasabi nila na...

Kung kayo, kayo talaga..

Kung kayo, babalikan ka niya...

Ano yun? Iaasa ko na lang sa hangin?

Sa tadhana?

Sa isang bagay na hindi ko nakikita?

Iaasa ko na lang sa tadhana yung future namin ng taong mahal na mahal ko?

3 years kami...

Kailangan ko na lang bang tanggapin na hindi kami ang nakatadhana para sa isa't-isa?

Hindi ganun...

Hindi yun ganun para sakin..

Para sakin, kung mahal mo...

Habulin mo...

Dapat ipaglaban mo yun...

Pero paano mo ipaglalaban kung siya mismo ang may ayaw na ipaglaban mo siya?

Paano kapag hindi ka pa nagsisimula ay talo ka na?

Siguro nga hindi kami meant to be..

Siguro nga may nakalaang ibang tao para sa akin..

Sabi ko noon,

Huwag mong hintayin na may magtulak sa kanya pabalik sayo...

Hatakin mo...

Hangga't kaya mo...

Huwag kang susuko..

Huwag kang bibitaw...

Pero kung talagang wala na, maawa ka naman sa sarili mo...

Hindi ka tanga, bobo, bayani at martyr.

May mga bagay talaga na magbabago..

Ang alam natin ay permanente na pero hindi pala..

Siguro nga wala talagang forever, no?

Sorry, mahal ko eh.

3 years kami...

Pero bakit ganun?

Bakit niya ako iniwan?

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A/N: Hi, sa mga sumusuporta po sa THB, maraming salamat po! I hope pati GIF ay suportahan niyo din. This is a story of Zoona's cousin.

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