Ahsoka One Shots

Toxic

Nope we're hurting Ahsoka again, this time it's mental with a hint of physical. No one can stop the pain I put my characters through (Whump? Angst? Idk, I'm lost with the terminology at this point)

I've been in a toxic friendship myself, so I know what this is like. Someone hurting you with their words, not even knowing they're doing it sometimes. Little things that slowly chip away at your self image, distancing you from the rest of the world, them convincing you that it's your fault that you're like that, and that everything they say about you is somehow your fault. It really messes with your mind.

That being said, we're gonna do a platonic Ahsoka/Barriss toxic friendship. Barriss just wreaks of mentally unstable, ya know, with the whole "framing her for murder and treason" thing.

Enjoy :)

Something in her gut told her not to see Barriss. That she didn't want to. And yet every time she offered some time together, Ahsoka always seemed to accept. She was always so kind, never wanted to hurt her, always offering her gifts and kind words, she was her only true friend and she couldn't get herself to admit that she scared her. Ahsoka always tried to give herself a reason not to get together, but pushed it back because "She's been nothing but kind, I can't betray her like that."

So when Barriss asked if she wanted to eat breakfast with her the next day, she couldn't decline. Instead, stomaching the gut feeling and going with it. She was her friend, after all. Ahsoka pushed away the bad thoughts, reminding herself that Barriss had always been there for her and was a good friend. She made her way to the mess hall where Barriss was waiting at a nearby table. Ahsoka greeted her, then got her own food before sitting down.

"So, Ahsoka, how have you been? You always seem to be too busy lately, you keep calling off our meetings." She spoke with pure kindness, but you could hear it laced in spite if you listened hard enough. Ahsoka didn't catch it.

"I know, and I'm really sorry. Everything's just been so crazy lately," Ahsoka replied.

"I just thought you'd be able to prioritize, you know? But nevermind, you're here now." Barriss smiled and continued with her food. "I saw you with the clones the other day, don't you think you shouldn't get so close to them? I mean, we're Jedi. Attachments are forbidden after all."

"I-" She was speechless for a moment. Sure, Barriss had always disliked breaking the code, but had never really brought it up like this before. "It's good to know who you're fighting with, I was just getting to know some of the newer clones," She lied, hoping to get Barriss to stop. She gave a nod that faked understanding and continued talking about different, less threatening subjects. By the end of the conversation Ahsoka felt horrible for ever thinking she shouldn't be friends with Barriss.

That thought however, was all but destroyed when Barriss and her were walking back to their quarters. Barriss spoke out of nowhere. "That dress doesn't hang right on you, it'd probably look better on me." Somehow, she said this with utter oblivion in her voice, as if she had no intention of hurting Ahsoka. The Togruta mentally stopped dead. How could she say something like that?

Maybe she's right, maybe it does look ugly, Ahsoka convinced herself. They kept walking, Barriss still holding a conversation as if everything were normal. Her words though, were anything but normal.

"I've been pushing myself harder lately and it's really paying off, Master Luminara said my combat skills have really improved." She stopped to look at Ahsoka for a brief moment. "You should touch up on your lightsaber skills Ahsoka, I heard you were falling behind the other day on your mission."

When Ahsoka reached her quarters she was anything but peaceful. What was going on? It felt like Barriss was inside her head, trying her hardest to injure Ahsoka. She had always been so kind, so supportive, but those comments threw her off. The worst part? She was starting to believe them.