Ahsoka One Shots

Destructive

I used three songs for inspo (Ik, it's a bit much haha). This is gonna be kind of a classic one shot, so basically a rewrite of the same plot for the sixth time. The council are butts by sending teenagers to war, that's all. My writing's really predictable XD

This'll be even MORE Ahsoka and Obi-Wan angst for Ahsoka_Fan12 because they requested it a while back and I didn't like how I wrote it the first time, I was okay with the second time, then now it's really at PEAK angst. So here, I finally did it right haha

Here are the songs. This was the one that started me on the chapter, which reminded me of the second one, which reminded me of the third lol

Fading Away... Oh gosh this one. I love it so much and I really did the whole thing off this song. This was the one that was on repeat as I wrote haha. Also it says "it hurts me to stay, and it kills me to go, letting you down hurts more than you know" Which just reminds of the Wrong Jedi arc and makes me sad

Lastly, this only has a few lines I used but they're all golden and I wanted to share the song anyway. Mostly the "I'm half alive, I'm so ashamed" part. As well as "I'm everything I hate then I'm nothing at all"

Similar to my mini-book Darkness, so TW for self destructive tendencies and depression. I've done one like this before (See, Keep Them Alive, and Keep Her Alive), but it undoubtedly needed to be rewritten anyway lol

Now that that rant's over, here ya go

Enjoy :)

She blended in.

Head down, do well in classes, pretend she had it all together. That's all it took to be pegged as normal. She wasn't a mess unless you could see the scars, so she wore her mental long sleeves and nobody was the wiser to the walls she had built over her life. Anakin had assumed her heightened mental shields were normal, either the result of war or just plain being a teenager. Either way, he let Ahsoka be. Obi-Wan similarly, figured she'd seek help if she needed it.

Oh how wrong they were.

Days seemed to blend. The Resolute didn't particularly have days, but cycles sure didn't feel like days. Each one was the same. Try and stomach the force-awful rations, go over her classwork, show up for briefings and battle planning, training sessions and workouts, report back to the council, and do it all again in a slightly altered order to trick herself into believing things were different.

Ahsoka probably shouldn't be training. She had come back from recon already a little sore, and doing back handsprings and strength training probably wasn't smart. But she was better like this, wasn't she? If she continued to progress, she'd be worthy of being a commander, she'd be worthy of being The Chosen One's Padawan, she'd finally be worthy to be a Jedi despite what others had said- and what she'd believed.

Those were her thoughts as she continued through her Jar'Kai forms. Every minute spent training was another minute added onto her time as an apprentice. She'd been using the clone training rooms instead of her private one with Anakin, to hope to avoid her master should he disapprove of her tactics. This, unfortunately, meant she had attracted a crowd as she trained. It was Rex who was brave enough to speak up.