Remember When...? (2)

34.

August 6th, 2021

Ben

We finally got the pictures back from the shoot. Ally decided to put them in an album, along with the pictures she got taken when she was pregnant with Liam.

"When did you take these?" I ask her, pointing at the picture of her from her first pregnancy.

"Literally the week before you guys came to Phoenix." She answers.

I look down at her with raised eyebrows. "Really?"

"Mhm." She replies with pursed lips.

"You look good in them." I scratch my brow with my thumb.

"You think so?" She asks.

"Of course you do baby." I say, kissing the side of her head.

She grins. The album had Liam's birth certificate in it, which had his tiny foot prints on it as well.

"He got so big since then." I exclaim.

"I know." She pouted. "My little baby."

"17 months. It's crazy how fast they grow." I say.

"Don't remind me." She said.

"We're about to have another one though. That should keep you occupied." I express.

"Oh it will. It definitely will." She exclaimed in sarcasm. "I'll have a toddler and a newborn."

"Life definitely does come at you fast." I comment.

She nods in agreement.

"How about Jasmine? How is she doing?" I ask.

"She's doing good. For 20 weeks of pregnancy." She answered. "Still hasn't decided what she's going to do in terms of adoption."

"You still haven't brought up-"

"No." She cuts me off. "And I kind of don't want to."

"Why not?" I ask.

"Maybe she's finally coming to terms with this whole motherhood thing. That having children takes sacrifice." She said. "She might be ready to accept the responsibility that comes with being a mom."

"But you said it yourself that she's having self doubts about having a kid." I say.

"But I also said that the decision for her to put the baby up for adoption, or terminate the pregnancy, was completely hers." She says.

I sigh. "So what do you think she's going to do?"

"She might keep the baby." She replies.

I nod at that, hoping that's what'll happen.

"I support whatever decision she makes. In the end, it's about what makes her happy." She said.

"Do you think she'll be happy taking on that kind of responsibility?" I ask.

"She wouldn't have much of a choice. She did put herself in this situation." She shrugs.

"I know that, but what if she realizes later on down the line that maybe she made a mistake?" I ask her.

She shrugs again, unable to answer that question.

"It's funny you say that though, because when I first told her I was pregnant, she mentioned how if I got an abortion, I wouldn't have to deal with any regrets." She said. "But I feel like I would've regretted terminating the pregnancy as soon as it happened."