Be Still My Heart

Sleep Deprived

Y/N POV-

All of us go our separate ways after the meeting agreeing to only discuss the extent of the plan when we are inside the small room. I walk Wanda to her room and stop outside her door with her. "Are you going to stay with me tonight?"

My brain and my heart are fighting. I want to hold her tight in my arms to keep her close, safe but after what happened today, I'm not sure. I'm not in control of my powers right now. "I don't know if that is the best idea, babe."

Wanda leans forward wrapping her arms around my neck. "Can I stay with you then?" A twist of words. "Babe," I wrap my arms around her waist as we stand there in the hallway. "I can sleep on the floor this time if you are worried." I shake my head no. "Not happening."

Wanda steps back and takes my hand leading me into my room, a little more private. "What aren't you saying, Y/N?" I sit down on the edge of my bed as Wanda moves in front of me. I look up at her as she runs her fingers through my hair. Her voice comes out soft, "Talk to me."

I place me hands on the outside of her legs and look down staring at her stomach in front of me avoiding eye contact, "Why aren't you scared of me? I am so afraid I am going to hurt you again. I, I can barely stand that I hurt you once even knowing it was unintentional. Why haven't you left me?"

Wanda kneels down to the ground and takes my hands in hers. "Look at me, Y/N." I hesitate until Wanda places her finger under my chin lifting it up just enough so I have to look at her.

"You have not done anything intentionally and I know you never will. This is just a small bump we have to go over. This is not a reason for me to leave you. I am not leaving you. And when we are at Hydra together, I will be with you the entire time. Together. We are in this together. Yes, it could happen again, but why live in fear, to stay away from you, when we can make the most of the time we have together. Personally, if I could spend forever in your arms, I would die happy."

Tears rolls out of my eyes as I blink dropping them down onto our interlocked hands. "I don't want to hurt you again." Wanda nods her head a couple times with tears in her own eyes. "I know you don't, baby. I know you don't. Come here."

Wanda stands up and pulls me into her wrapping both arms around my shoulders and head keeping me held tightly against her. "It's going to be okay. We'll figure out how you can get better control over your new abilities and we'll stop Hydra. We're going to get out of this, together."

Wanda POV-

Y/N is up and moving around the room when I wake up. She's pulling on yoga pants and a tank top. The sun has barely risen outside. "Good morning, how did you sleep?" She shrugs her shoulders as she grabs her headphones. "Fine, I guess." The bags under her eyes and her sluggish movements say otherwise.

"I'm going to head downstairs to train. I texted Nat and she is already up so she is meeting me downstairs." I nod my head. "I'll meet you down there after I get ready."

She nods her head and walks over to me leaning down to kiss my forehead. "Sounds good. Love you." I watch as she walks towards the door. "Love you too."

I get changed and walk towards the training room. I can hear them before I see them. "Come on, Y/N. Same thing as last night." I step out onto the balcony that overlooks the gym floor to see Nat standing in front of Y/N.

"Channel those feelings you were having last night. You need to protect. You have to. A matter of life or death." Y/N looks frustrated as she stands there with her eyes closed, palms up trying to will it to happen.

I step back into the hallway and take the stairs down to get to Nat and Y/N's level. Her eyes shoot over towards the door when it clicks open. She lets out a sigh of relief when she sees me.