Eloping Our Chances [BL][COMPLETED]

24 ; troubled wishes

C E V O R – X A V E R I O

"The best way to shut your enemy off is to shut them with kindness." I traced a finger to my mom's bright face captured and printed in the photo frame I'm holding. Those words was her wish for me.

'Bakit ikaw pa ang nawala, mom? Bakit hindi na lang sila?' I want to believe you. That life is easier when I am kind but life fucked me up so much.

I am not sorry for anything that I've done. I'm not sorry for holding a gun or a knife, or anything illegal. I'm not sorry for those. Life made me do it.

The only thing I am sorry for is wasting the only wish my mother wanted me to be, "I'm sorry I didn't grow to the kind person you wanted me to be."

I removed my gaze from the photo frame at kaagad na binaling ang atensiyon sa pintuan ng opisina ko sa mansion nang makarinig ako ng katok.

"Come in." Ang sabi ko at pinasok sa loob ng drawer ang larawan ng aking ina. She doesn't deserve to be hidden pero kailangan. I still need to finish all my plans.

"Cevor," I raised my head to see my brother, Nhaze. He was at ease while leaning on the closed door frame. He was holding a bouquet of flowers.

"Nhaze," I greeted voice cold and uninterested,

"What brings you here?"

He's not my real brother but I still value him like one. The only label I can put in our relationship.

"Just passing by... I'm going back this afternoon and naisip kong puntahan ka bago ako bumalik." Tiningnan ko siyang naglakad papunta sa harapan ng glass wall ng opisina ko.

"Be careful," My pen halted from signing the document when I heard his calm tone. Napatingin ako sa kaniya ulit at kalmadong postura ang nakikita ko sa kaniya habang nakatanaw sa ekta-ektaryang hacienda at bulubundukin na pagmamay-ari ko.

"Alam kong importante sa'yo ang mga plano mo. I helped you with it. Suporta ako sa'yo, oo, pero kapag may nangyaring masama sa'yo ay hindi ako mag-aatubiling kunin ka dito at i-uwi sa atin."

Tila nanuyo ang lalamunan ko sa sinabi niya. Ito ang nakakatakot sa pamilya namin, wala kaming kinakatakutan kahit na ang isa't-isa.

"Alam ko." Bumuntong hininga ako at napatingin naman siya sa may takip kong mukha. He smiled so bright it reminded me of my mother's smiles. I was so much into his smiles that I let him get closer to me.

"Please take good care of yourself while I'm gone."

"I love you," I heard him utter as I felt his lips on the corner of my head kissing me tenderly.

"Alam ko...." I watched as his presence left the room.

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Tiningnan ko ang oras at may sumilay na ngiti sa mga labi ko. Oras na para makipagkita sa mga Montero na nais akong maka-usap.

Tumayo ako at walang pasabing naglakad palabas sa opisina habang dalawa sa mga tauhan ko ang sumunod sa pagalalakad ko palabas papuntang garahe.

As soon as I'm in the car, kaagad din itong umalis papunta sa lugar na gusto kong masaksihan nang mismo kong mga mata. I want to witness their downfall, today. This is not new, destroying others and targeting them behind their back. Ito ang isa sa mga paraan ko kung bakit nandidito pa rin ako sa posisyon ko. I don't fight equally; I fight with my mind and brain.

I dialed someone and put the speaker close to my ear, "Malapit na ako."

"Handa na ang lahat. Ikaw na lang ang hinihintay." I smiled at Gwen's announcement. I can hear Gwen's laugh at the other line bago maputol ang koneksiyon nito.