Eloping Our Chances [BL][COMPLETED]

45 ; everlasting chance

"It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn't matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over."

- Paulo Coehlo

C Y M O N – X A V E R I O – R U S C I A N A

Play the song: I choose – Alesia Carra

I am the epitome of life-struggles. I am the face of survival. I was the product of misconception. I am everything that I am today because of my past. Although I can say that not everything was meaningful, but it was at least an experience to behold. Because of the hurtful past, I chose vengeance before my name. I become the person Cymon would never be. 

Masiyado akong nasaktan sa mga masasakit na salita na bumatikos sa aking pagkatao kung kaya't naging totoo ang mga lahat ng ito. I don't have a choice that time, but now I can finally choose what I want, what my heart longs to fall. And this time I chose Rusell, because he is my happiness. He is my home. Dahil sa piling ng lalaking ito payapa ang puso ko.

I am at peace when I am in his arms. The demons in me are tamed. I don't need to fight no more, because he promises to fight for me and our family.

I remember how childlike I was. Not before turning eighteenth, I remember myself crying because of a motor accident. That was me before everything turned upside down. Naging sentro ko sa buhay ang aking pamilya, sina mommy, ang lolo at lola, ang mga tito at tita, ang mga pinsan ko, and even ang mga tao sa buong Del Sur.

Everyone from my past remembers the kind and innocent Cymon. At first, when the world saw the new me, when they knew about Cevor, they were confused. I was too, honestly. I thought they would understand the reason on why I become the demon and antagonist of my own story. Instead, they saw the changes I made. 

Imbes na makita nila kung gaano na ako katayog, nakita nila ang kaawa-awang si Cymon sa mata ni Cevor. Lubusan ang pagkadurog ng aking puso sa pagkamatay ni Gwen kung kaya't hindi ko napansin na kumakawala na pala ang aking tunay na katauhan. But my sister's death was a gun triggered to pull and shot me with the reality. Ang katotohanang kahit anong gawin kong pagbabago ay hindi ko pwedeng kalimutan na ako ay ako. Ako si Cymon. At naka-ukit na sa aking tadhana ang araw na ito.

To be able to move on is to accept my past, learning to accept my mistakes, and to forgive but not forget. 

"Bonjour, maîtresse, avez-vous bien dormi?" The head lady whom I am now familiar with smiled at me. She was asking about how was my sleep.

"Bonjour, mon corps est un peu endolori, mais un bon bain suffirait." I answered in French. Sinagot ko ang katanungan na medyo masakit ang likuran ko at gusto ko munang magbabad para maibsan ang sakit.

Kaagad na tumalima siya at ang mga kababaehan na kasama niya at nagsimula sa kanilang mga gawain. Some prepared the bath, and everything I could possibly want.

Nasanay na ako sa ganitong uri ng trato, but in Rusell's people I am a queen. They were to caring to the point they would apologize immediately. I am also kind enough to reassure them that everything is alright. I would always remind Rusell to be kind to his people, dahil nakikita ko sa kanilang mga mukha ang takot kapag si Rusell na ang pinag-uusapan. I would want them to see me as their companion. Alam kong nag-aalala lang si Rusell sa kapakanan ko at sa magiging anak namin pero kaya ko ang sarili. I'm not weak. I may act kind now, but that doesn't mean I can't protect myself.

The smell of roses invaded my nose, the serene sound of water made my mind and body relax. Remembering the excited face of my man, I opened my eyes once more and rinsed my body well. Today is the day of our official wedding in the public. I am officially a Rusciana. Nananalaytay sa buong pagkatao ko ang pagiging kabiyak ni Rusell, ang pinuno at lider ng Rusciana Mafia.