Eloping Our Chances [BL][COMPLETED]

38 ; comforting agony

C Y M O N – M O N T E R O – X A V E R I O

All has its end.

Walking barefoot on this fine and warm sea sand never has always been this comforting. Dahil siguro alam kong huli na'to. Looking at the person beside me, he gives me hope. He has always stayed on my side. He made his promised.

The place looks the same, the memories remains the same, but the people changes. Hindi naman nagbabago ang mga bagay, nagbabago lang ang lahat dahil sa nagbabagong pananaw ng mga tao.

"This was the same bench on the same spot... we made a promise here." I said softly habang tinitingnan ang upuan. Beside it was the lamp post na nakatayo pa rin, serving its purpose.

He softly hummed at naunang maupo dito. Hinintay niya akong maupo pero tiningnan ko lang ang tabi niya.

"Rusell, bakit mo pinanghawakan ang mga pangako mo? Matagal na akong sumuko, bakit patuloy kang lumalaban?"

Looking at the spot beside him, parang 'di naman ako karapat-dapat para maupo d'yan.

"I love you. 'Yan ang tanging rason ko, Cy., I don't see why you're asking this, it doesn't matter anymore. As long as you're with me, that is more enough for me."

Mapupungay ang mga mata niya habang nakatingala siya sa akin. We both locked our eyes staring at each other. We have grown so much independently but the love and affection we once had has always been the same.

"That is selfish of you. Papaano kung gusto ko nang makawala. Paano kung ayaw ko na sa set-up natin? Paano kung hindi ko mabigay sa'yo ang pinangako ko."

I observed his features intimately, his warm and menacing eyes, those red and tempting lips, strong jaw line and dangerous glimmer of his shaven musk.

Rusell is the standard. He is the standard I set for myself. Kaya kahit na maraming lalaki ang nagtangka, I can finally accept the reason kung bakit wala silang epekto sa akin. Rusell is incomparable. Maraming lalaki ngunit nag-iisa ang Rusell na nakilala ko.

"Kung 'di mo na kaya, you can rest but you can't stop me from making you love me again. Pinangako ko sa'yong tayo ang 'wakas' so you better ready yourself, wifey."

A single shed of tear escaped from my eyes.

"The death of my sister triggered something in my head, you know... bumalik na sa akin ang lahat ng mga memorya ko."

He stands up. He cupped my face and I didn't flinch. No, I stayed and embraced the warmth of his calloused hands.

"Then remember my love for you. Forget the pain I had caused and only accept the happy moments we shared." He whispered as he kissed my temple two times.

Suminghot ako at nagpatuloy na umiyak.

"Bakit ba kasi ayaw mong sumuko? Marami naman diyang iba eh. Natatakot ako... for the first time in years, natatakot akong masaktan ka."

"Don't. Don't ever. Ako ang dapat matakot. You have been in pain for more than I could ever think, I am the one who's afraid of losing you. Kakapit ako kahit na pinagtutulakan mo na ako. I will hold to the promise we both plead under the stars and in front of those waves."

I was left speechless. Dakila ang pagmamahal niya habang ang puso ko ay nanatiling tahimik. Alam kong siya pa rin. Siya naman talaga. But the time of our love story is not the right time. This is not a love story. This is the story of our love.

Kumawala ako sa yakap niya at pinahiran ang luha ko and for the first time ulit, tumawa ako. I laughed at our situation. He laughed too. That laughter made my heart ached more. Ito na ang huling pagkakataon na maririnig ko 'yan.