Eloping Our Chances [BL][COMPLETED]

40 ; his awakening

C Y M O N – M O N T E R O – X A V E R I O

I am at peace but their voices made me pained. I can hear his pleas to open my eyes and see him. Rusell's pleas are contagious. Nasasaktan ako para sa kaniya.

Pareho naming nasasaktan ang aming sarili. But what can I do? I can hear him but my body is soar and tired. My heart is beating for his touch and heat, for the comfort of his love but my mind set still.

Pahinga muna tayo. 'Yan ang sabi ng isip ko. Kakatanggap lang namin sa madaming katotohanan kung kaya't naintindihan ko ito. Napagagod ang isipan ko. Napagod ako.

I don't want to exhaust myself to the point na susuko ako. No, never. I won't give up. I still want to see the beauty of the world in my own eyes. Gusto kong makita ang kagandahan ng mundo sa mga magagandang mata ni Rusell. Gusto kong maramdaman ang kapayapaan sa mga halik at yakap ng mga mahal ko sa buhay.

I want to live, but I want to rest also. Ayaw kong makita siya na patuloy na nasasaktan dahil pinilit ko ang sarili ko. Nakakapagod ang ipilit sa sarili ang katotohanang kailanman ay hindi ako tunay na sumaya sa katauhan ni Cevor.

Cevor was strong. Cevor can move mountains. Cevor is merciless. Cevor is the epitome of power, the epitome of a phoenix. Cevor is me. But one thing I realized. Cevor can never love Rusell like Cymon does. At pinipili ko si Rusell. Ang marinig ang mga iyak niya, ang maramdaman ang mga luha niya sa akin, iyon ang pinakamasakit na narinig ko. I felt it. His want for me; his endless love and comfort.

"Hey anong ginagawa mo?! Magnanakaw ka no?! Hay naku huwag ka dito magnakaw dahil kanina pa ako napi-peste!" Napatalon ako sa gulat ng bigla akong sigawan ng Miss na nagtitinda ng flowers.

"H-hindi p-po. Tinitignan ko lang kasi paborito ko po itong bulaklak." Pagpaliwanag ng pitong taong gulang kong sarili sa babaeng seller ng flowers.

Hawak-hawak ko pa ang isang pirasong Sunflower sa mumunti kong kamay.

"Anong paki ko?! Bayaran mo 'yan!" I don't understand on why she is shouting at me. I'm very embarrassed kasi marami na ang nakakakita sa amin. I was just touching and admiring its beauty when she yelled at me with not enough reason.

"B-but I don't have money, po. Can't I have this for free na lang? Birthday ko po k-kasi ngayon." Her eyes were like a monster, it was big and she has these teeth that are not complete and hideous to look at. I'm not saying it was the reason for her misfortune, but her attitude surely is.

Hinablot niya ang flower sa kamay ko at akmang papaluin ako but I stepped back. She then glared at me with that scary face! What is her problem, I am still a child and this is not right. I know it's not right to scare a child with an ugly face. She's so scary na, naiiyak na ako.

'Where are you mommy?' I cried inwardly while looking at my shoes. The marbled floor reflected my sad and embarrassed face. I want my mommy.

Mom was so busy with her appointment kaya I decided to stroll around the area. She promised me to buy my favorite food kasi, as my birthday gift.

"Hayan kasi! Layas! Aba't kay aga binu-bwesit paninda ko!" She shrieks again habang tinuturo ako ng sunflower sa kamay niya. The poor flower was like my own self at this moment. I guess there was no need for yelling and shouting, maybe she's just having a bad day. Well, it wouldn't change the fact that she's still ugly! Bilhin ko 'yung store niya eh!

I was in my tears when I started going back to where mom is. Promise I didn't do anything to the flower, I was just touching it.

On my way back, I can see kids at my age playing sa kids zone. Gusto ko sana pumunta pero baka mapagalitan na naman ako ni Miss Ugly-Flower Seller kanina. I tried wiping my tears away para mas makita ang mga toys na nasa loob. I want one.