Behind the smile

It's all my fault

Here I am, standing in the middle of nowhere

Living in this terror hoping it's a nightmare

I'm staring at the sky

Asking myself why did I lie

Broke the love, broke the fragile

Here I am, paying the price and fighting this battle

The trauma of the past made me lose

But nobody knows, no one has a clue

Kept it for myself so I don't lose you

Now you're gone but still don't know the truth

But I can't blame you that you chose to leave

Nobody could be madder at me than me

I know you'll never trust me

I've brought this to myself

But if only I could turn back time

I would fix everything and make you mine