Behind the smile

Mistakes

I look beyond my scarred life

I don't know how I managed to survive

Every choice I made was wrong

I brought this to myself so here I belong

I'm trapped inside past of pain and regret

Remorse for what I've done, for all my mistakes

Desperate and searching for forgiveness

Searching for hope and acceptance

All the wrongs I committed

I was numb and so co-dependent

The lies that I've spoken so many times

The feelings that I always try to deny

All the pain that haunts me still

And all the shame surrounding me

Is now the past that I can't kill

Forever wrapped around me

And all the sadness in my life

Are now the things that I can't hide

It's just a fear that's deep inside

As time flies, I try to do what's right

And become the best version of myself, happy revived