Behind the smile

Secrets

I sit alone

In my comfort zone

Allow my thoughts to roam

My mind comes to find memories I left behind

I had a secret, I tried to hide

Which I kept hidden, deep inside

But nothing changed, inside my head

Questions in my mind when I head to bed

When will I come out of this darkness and rise?

When will the light shine through my eyes?

I pretend that the past isn't real

It brings back how I used to feel

So much sadness in my hopeless life

Never knew things would change so fast

I tried to move on but the memories last

My feelings I can't even withstand

Writing words I can't even understand

I don't want to keep up with these lies

I don't want to live just to die