Behind the smile

Third phase: Trauma

Until I bleed

I think a lot about myself, I fall too deep

I get lost inside my head; I take deep breathes

I'm so paranoid, I want to sleep

I'm so terrified, I fight my dreams

I fight my dreams using my mind, I bleed and feel

I feel the blood rushing out of my head

It's just like a drug, I just can't feel

It keeps the terrific away, yet it doesn't keep me real

I can't explain why I'm terrified, I want to get you off my dreams

I want you out of my life

I want to cut you off my mind until I bleed

But you still there, why don't you leave

I don't need you anymore so, please