I do love you//louis partridge+ female reader

is he really doing this

"um hi Y/n!"

"oh, uh hi"

-Louis' POV-

people-your friends say I'm dumb for trying to fix our puzzle, but the only puzzle I'm trying to fix is mine. you seem too far to touch but you're standing right in front of me. but there's something already infront of me that I'm more focused on, my problems that involved you, maybe it would be easier if I was just the villain in your story, but that would mean I would have to hate you, and that would be utterly impossible, but what if I already am the villain.

tell me you love me, and then I'll tell you I care

we are both liars and maybe even good ones, but at least we both got we wanted right? I'm doing this for you, I've done this for you and now I have to fix it, I don't know what you want but you look happier without me, I want you happy, even if it's without me, but that doesn't mean that I won't try, I want you happy, but I want you happy...with me. Is that so impossible? is that so crazy of me to think will ever happen? is that so dumb of me to think of even trying? is it just impossible?. I want to know

"is it impossible?" I decide to ask her, I just want the answer, and I want it from her, not from the voices in my head telling me that I've fucked up and the other telling me I should kill her, don't ask

"is what impossible?" she sighs, raising an eyebrow

"us, is us being at least friends? again, is that so impossible to ask?" I look at the ground

yes, yes it is, you hurt her man, let her be happy, even if it's without you

blah blah blah, omg, we don't want her happy! don't make her happy, we hurt her more, we kill her

the two voices in my head fight, GOD SHUT UP, SHE'S NOT EVEN REPLYING, UGHGHHH

just give up Louis, this will be fine, you'll never know she probably will say it's not impossible

It is impossible! but you know what isn't? killing her, c'mon our father is he who shall not be named, we can do anything

SHUT UP BOTH OF YOU

you love her ok, Louis that's ok, it's ok to love her, this will be ok

NO you do NOT love her, Louis don't listen to this little goody two shoes, their giving you hopes up,

you're right, do I actually love her? or do I just like the idea of her? I don't love her, maybe I just think I do because I like the idea of loving someone

"you 'know what Y/n, it is impossible, maybe not but I don't want it to happen" I smile to myself

"ok?" Y/n replies looking so confused

"I hate you-" I blurt out

well I didn't mean THAT

good going dipshit, you just fucking broke her heart, way to go Louis, I can't believe I got put up with you dumbass

I like this kind of you, I agree, I never told you to say that, that's on you bro, I just said kill her

AHHH FUCKKKKK

"that's ok" she smiles and giggles a little

"I really don't care anymore Louis, go have fun with Voldy" she laughs

"so what?" I start to panic

louis, calm tf down

I agree, once again