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"Iris, wait!" said Levi as he trailed behind me. After that devastating news, I couldn't help but walk away. From everything: from that room, from my friends, and from the truth. Tears rolled down my eyes and it didn't help when I felt Levi's warm hand around my wrist.
His brows raised as soon as he saw the shine in my eyes, but it wasn't out of joy. It was out of sadness and pain. I think he had never expected me to be so... worn down, tired and angered.
My voice was croaky and brittle, any moment and I could break down in the middle of the hall.
"My whole... life has been a lie, Levi." The thin eyebrows of his bent into a saddened frown before pulling me into a tight hug. "All my life I-I thought I was someone special. That I was lucky..."
I dug my face into his warm embrace and never wanted to look up. "All along I've been the enemy-"
"No," he interjected and tightened his embrace. "We don't know the whole truth. Listen to me." He pulled away and forced me to look at him in his dark-blue eyes.
"None of that bullshit is real until we get proof. It's all a speculation, alright?"
"But Hange-"
"You know that nerd throws all these theories around. Even if it was true—you're not an enemy," he said in his calmest, most reassuring voice. However, I didn't know what to believe in anymore. Levi pulled me in an embrace once again, this time with gentleness.
"You're Iris Schmidt. Born a fighter, a soldier and a special woman." Hearing his words made me shut my eyes. I'm sorry Levi. I know how hard you're trying. But it all feels so... empty.
I wiped my tears away in order to reassure him that I was fine—that I looked fine, at least. I even forced a smile. "Thank you..." I just wanted to cry alone, rethink everything like I always do, although this time, most of my questions have been answered. My parents have lied to me all this time—scratch that, they never said anything to me. Probably to protect me. To protect themselves. I started to wonder what life would have been like had I been born into that place.
Would I have turned out to be like those kids? Like Reiner, Annie and Bertholdt? That thought alone sent shivers down my spine. I do not want to be any traitor. As much as I was pained to hear Hange's theory, Levi was right. I was never associated with those traitors, with their stupid place or with their stupid ideologies. I don't have time to be sorry for myself.
I needed to force myself to be all right. Forget everything about the truth. Father was right.
Ignorance is bliss.
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"Major, you're late," Moblit teased as I ambled down the vast fields. Apparently, Hange had created some sort of invention to combat the Armoured Titan. It had only been a month. I have been recovering from what I learned about myself. I realized that If I denied the truth, none of it matters. My only goal was to win the damn fight and survive the expedition.
Levi passed through his soldiers to stand by my side. Crossing his arms, he raised a brow as he kept his eyes on Hange's demonstration. "You alright?" he questioned.
"Yeah. You?"
"Never been better, I guess. The nerd's got some new shit. I guess you could say I'm excited for the new weapon."
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Freedom: Levi Fanfiction
Fanfiction"The only way is forward", said Iris Schmidt, a refugee adopted by Grisha Jaeger. At the young age of 15, Iris watched as her parents were mercilessly eaten alive by a deformed titan. All she had known was a peaceful life outside the walls, secluded...
