Falling Unexpectedly [Completed]

26: State of Mind

"Stupid piece of shit fucking car!"

I screamed as soon as I got out at the school and started kicking the door as hard as I could. I didn't care if everyone around me was watching.

I've had it this morning.

As I started walking towards the building, I saw Connor catch up with me as he was running towards me.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

"Nothing." I walked inside the building before going to my locker. I opened it, grabbed my book then slammed it shut and heard it echo off the walls.

Connor leans on the locker next to mine. "You sure nothing is wrong?"

"This weekend has been a disaster."

"What happened?"

I shook my head before leaning against my locker. "When we came back from the party.. I told Blake how I felt." His eyes widened. "Yep. Everything. She wanted to know so I told her."

"What did she do?"

"Nothing. Absolutely nothing, which is good. I guess. I don't know. I wasn't expecting anything anyways. But still.. then my dad got drunk that night and came home around six. I woke up to them screaming at each other."

I laughed before looking at him. "And I kissed her again."

"Well shit." Connor looks at me with an amused look. "What happened afterwards?"

"Nothing." I shrug.

He kept looking at me. "She didn't freak out after you kissed her?"

"Yeah but.. I don't know." I groaned. "I hate myself."

He chuckles as he looks at me. "What did she say after you confessed your feelings?"

"What was she suppose to say? That she has feelings towards me too? Yeah, right. I wasn't expecting that."

Looking around, I just wanted to leave this town already. I wanted to never come back and run away somewhere far away.

I remembered something and I looked over at Connor as he was looking around. "You wanna know the worse part about that whole weekend?"

"What?"

"I heard them fucking last night and I couldn't fucking sleep!"

He stared at me with an expression I couldn't read. I shook my head as I looked around, ready to just pack up and leave.

"Rea.."

"Don't say it. I don't care. I swear to God if I was into drugs and shit, I would take so many right now."

Connor leans off the locker. "Ok, too far."

"No, I'm serious."

"Because of Blake?"

"Because my life is a fucking joke. I swear it wasn't this fucking bad five years ago. It's like God is punishing me for whatever reason. I don't know!"

I yelled and the hallways got quiet quickly. I look over at Connor as he was looking around before he looked back at me.

"Chill, Rea."

"I want to take some Xanax and just call it a life."

I felt him grab my arm. "What did I tell you that night? It's a bump in the road. You'll get through it."

"What if I don't? What if I can't take these next three fucking months? I'm going to lose my shit."

"No. It's ok." I rubbed my face then heard Connor. "Here comes trouble."