Howling Your Name

Chapter 4

It's the weekend and I failed to attend the last subject I have for this week which is Contemporary Arts. Sofi and Diane informed me that we have a new classmate for that subject and I have an idea about it already. It's Senrid of course. He mentioned it to me last time.

I woke up 4:30 in the morning to do some exercise at natapos naman ng 5:30. I feel I need it dahil sa pagiging madalas na pagkahilo at pagkirot ng ulo ko. I haven't plan to visit any doctors for me to check-up. Wala naman siguro to, marahil ay sa kapupuyat ko ito kaya ganoon. There are some cases na ganun.

My Saturday day is crowded because it's the day I need to pay all the bills we have here in our houses. Internet, Electric, and Water bills. Grocery day rin and laundry but, Molly is the assigned one for today so I don't need to worry. Tshirt, pants and shorts lang naman ang nilalabhan nyang damit ko.

After doing some exercise I decided to lay down in our black sofa while scrolling on my twitter account. I barely open my fb account kaya madalas ay sa twitter ako. I also checked my wattpad account kung ilang reads na ba yung isang on-going story ko. Malalim ang naging buntong-hininga ko ng makitang 14 reads palang ang meron.

I go back to my Twitter app and started scrolling there. Sinakop si Diane ang timeline ko sa twitter.

sofi.
@softiechl

i love you girlie, pagaling ka <3 @sanktamaliah
105 replies 1.8k retweets 21k likes

d.
@pdianel

rest well babe, kulang ka lang sa kisspiren, vitaminkiss at kiss sabay hug. @sanktamaliah
521 replies 12k retweets 22k likes

Napangiti ako sa tweet ng dal'wa about sakin. Sabog din ang notification sa dami ng tweets na natanggap ko at magpagaling daw ako. Hindi ko maikakailang sikat ang dalawa kong kaibigan lalong lalo na sa instagram. Habang ako ay sabit lamang.

Our friendship is very known inside and outside of social media. Diane is a famous influencer in terms of her fashion sense tapos nagvlo-vlog din sya while Sofi known for her creativeness in doing different make ups but she already signed off 2 years ago and still marami paring suporta ang nakukuha niya mula sa iba't ibang kabataan. Nakafocus nalang sya ngayon sa pagcocover ng kanta.

Habang ako ay isang frustrated writer na kahit isang story wala pang natatapos. I can't even finish a short story that makes me sad and even questioned myself na ito ba talaga ang gusto ko. Na hanggang dito nalang ba ang kaya ko. Ilang taon na ba akong sumubok pero lagi akong naiistuck sa simula.

I'm afraid that I'm chasing things that I thought were for me but the truth is, hindi naman talaga para sa akin.

Suportado ako ng dalawa kong kaibigan sa pagsusulat. But they can only promote my story once na natapos ko na ito. That's the term and conditions of having such an influencer friend. Hindi naman masama ang loob ko. I also want to finish atleast one but how? Alam kong maraming mahahakot ang dalawa upang suportahan ang story ko pero hindi ko talaga magawa.

I sighed.

I stood up and start cooking our breakfast. As usual ako na naman mag-isa ang kumain sa lamesa. Late kase madalas gumising si Molly at hindi ko naman alam kung anong pinagkaka-abalahan nya. Wala rin akong time para alamin dahil masyado akong nakafocus sa sarili ko.

Masayado akong nakafocus mag-overthink sa mga bagay bagay. It all started when the government launch a quarantine thingy to avoid more covid patient and for safety. Mahigit 1 year and in a half months na ang nakakalipas, my country were still under quarantine.

After I ate, syempre pinakain ko rin ang pusa ko na tahimik lang naghihintay kanina habang kumakain ako. Hinugasan ko ang pinag-kainan at pumanhik na sa taas para ihanda ang susuotin ko. I prefer baggy outfits for today since mag-gogrocery ako. Kinakailangan kong makagalaw ng maayos.