Howling Your Name

Chapter 28

Dahan dahan akong napakalas sa pagkakayakap sa kanya! My hands were trembling!

"H-how did you know?" My voice is shaking. Napayuko ako.

"I just know. How can you hide such a thing from me? Ano mo ba ako? Iba ba ako sa 'yo? Bakit kailangan mong ilihim?" Bigla akong nakonsensya.

I clenched my fist for being guilty. Tears now rounding in my eyes and at the moment I moved it will fall down in my cheek.

"I'm waiting for you to say it but you didn't. You're hiding it from me! I bet we're on the same page." I can feel how serious he is.

Binalot ng katahimikan sa pagitan namin.

"My surgery will be on 16," I mouthed.

"I know."

I looked at him teared-eye.

"I'm sorry! I just don't want you to worried so much about me. I just don't want you guys to think about me," Basag ang boses ko. Parang may kong anong pumipiga sa dibdib ko.

"How about Sofi and Diane? Wala ka rin bang balak sabihin?" I looked down to my feet, absentmindedly. Hindi ako naka-kibo!

"Kahit hindi mo sabihin sasabihin ko. They deserve to know, after all bestfriends mo sila."

"No, please. I beg!" Dito na tumulo ang luha ko.

"Wag, ayokong dumagdag sa isipin nila. People have different issues and I don't want to insert mine with them."

"I'm sorry if I lied. I just everything in me became so smooth."

"I understand you!" Senrid gently hold my head and bend it to his shoulder once again. Hindi ko na napigilan hindi maluha ng tuluyan. I thought he would hate me. I thought he would be mad at me like I always do to him. I thought he would leave me but he didn't. He stayed and chose to understand where I am coming.

This man. Lalo akong nahuhulog.

The following day I encouraged Senrid to upload a new video on his Youtube channel. He confessed to me that the last time he wasn't able to meet me exactly on my birthday is it because he attended his last session.

And now he's finally free from it though sometimes he can't stop overthinking special it is about me.

"Do you think this would be okay? A new soft theme?" He turned his swivel chair to me waiting for my reaction. I scan the video his now editing.

I suggested that he should upload first how he survived his issues. But the guy is too stubborn and he even deleted the last video of him confessing he has depression! Since matagal naman daw yun ay makakalimutan na ng mga tao.

"Pakiramdam ko magagalit mga fangirls mo!" I commented after I scan the video of us. From filming our way to the secret place of Subdivision to baking a cheesecakes to creating a cover song for the final examinations of Comptemporary Arts and many more.

He chuckled. "They must be surprise."

"Baka iriot ako ng mga yan ha," Muli ay ginulo nya ang buhok ko. Hobby ba talaga ng mga lalake yan?

After hours of editing he finally uploaded his first video for this year. Dumagsa ang iba't ibang komento sa comment box! Some were so happy, some were curious who's the girl he's with. Some congratulating him for coming back and many more!

"See," Proudly, I said.

"Gawa ka rin kaya ng channel mo? I'll promote. You want to be remembered, right?" Suhestiyon niya. Agad akong napailing.

"Ang panget ko. Hindi ako sanay humarap sa camera."

He scoffed.

"Ganyan ba tingin mo sa sarili mo? Do you think I would fall for someone who has an ugly appearance? Do you want me to let you borrow my eyes to witness how beautiful you are in any means?" I feel my cheeks suddenly reddened.