An inconvenient attachment

Chapter 43

He's here. Noah is here. He is standing right in front of me. Fuck, this is bad. This is really bad. I look around to see if there's anyone here, but there isn't. For god's sake, there are always people around. Everybody is probably celebrating. Not me. God, why did I had to be tough and get my purse alone. I wish Lando was with me, but he isn't. This is trouble.

My hands start to shake. I feel dizzy. All those memories come back to me. Memories I tried so hard to forget. "I uh," fuck Mia, speak for god sake. Scream for help. Do something. But I can't i'm completely frozen. I hate who I become when i'm around Noah. This helpless little girl who can't stand up for herself. It wasn't always like this. We used to have fun together, the three of us. Me, Noah and my brother. But since the accident everything changed. Noah changed. I changed. I'm not the same person, no one is.

"I uh" he says mockingly, "use your words". This is how I remember him. The mocking, the belittling, the hurting. Well, at least we didn't get to the last part yet. Yet.

"I should go" I stammer. I turn around. Suddenly his hand grab my arm. "Really? You haven't seen me for months and this is how you greet me? I expected a warmer welcome. Since you bailed, out of nowhere" He almost spitst his words. I feel tears burning behind my eyes. Noah sees me looking around for help. Before I can stop it he pulls me behind a trailer. Fuck fuck fuck. "I hoped I would see you today" he says with a smile on his face that creepes me out.

Noah loosens his grip on my arm slightly, but I know better than to run. I know how that ended the last time. With a blue eye and a broken wrist. He steps closer to me. "I missed you. Did you miss me?" he asks. I nod. "Liar" he says while grabbing my chin firmly. "I saw you on tv you know. With that guy. What's his name? Lando?"

"So what, I wasn't rich enough? Not good enough? You decided to fuck your way to the top?" He pins me against the trailer, holding my chin with one hand and grabbing my sore wrist with his other hand. Tears stream down my face now.

"Please, Noah" I beg him to let me go.

"Oh that's right, you don't let anyone fuck you" he spits at me. He slams my head against the trailer, it stars getting dizzy in front of my eyes. His hand holding my chin so hard, it might leave a mark.

I don't say anything, i'm too scared to even move. "Or did you? I mean, why would any guy be interested in you besides the point off fucking you? I wasn't." His face is only inches away from mine.

"I'm surprised you fooled him. But I guess you are just a lying, deceitful, little bitch" he says while slamming his fist against the trailer, right next to my head. Fuck shit, holy fuck, I need to get out of here.

"You're hurting me" I cry out. I feel myself getting sick.

"Look at me when I talk to you" he almost screams now. I flinch when Noah moves his hand from my chin and grabs my other wrist also. I look him in the eyes. Eyes full off anger and hate. The pain in my wrist almost makes me pass out.

"Your brother would be ashamed of you" he slams my wrist against the trailer, the sound of glass shattering goes right through me. Oh no, no, no no.

I look at my watch, which is completely broken. Glass laying on the floor underneath me. The strap of my watch is torn in two. I hold it in my hand. Tears stream down my face now. I don't care he sees me like that. All the beating, the calling names, the scaring me, everything he ever did to me, nothing compares to this. Braking the only thing I have left from my brother. I don't think i've ever hated him as much as now. I look at him. How could he do this?

"Fuck, Mia" he seems to realize what he did, maybe he does even feel bad.

"Look what you made me do" Noah continues. Well, I guess not. He grabs the watch out of my hand and throws it on the floor. I immediately try to pick it up, but he keeps me in place, not letting me move even an inch. I look at my hand which is bleeding heavily now, glass stuck in my hand.

The sounds of people approaching relieves me. Noah's grip loosens a bit. "Do you know what, you're not even worth it, you bitch" he says, "and i'm pretty sure that Lando guy will see that soon also, i'll make sure of it." He lets go of my chin and strokes my hair with his hand. He takes a step back. "You better break things off with that guy, you whore. Or the next time you see me I won't be so nice." He fakes a smile om his face, goes with his hand through his hair getting it in model again. Fuck, he looks like a real psychopath now. Then Noah turns around and walks off. Like nothing even happend.

As soon as he is out of my sight I fall on the ground and look beside me to find my watch. I find it under the trailer. I grab it and hold the watch to my chest. I pull my knees up to my chest and lay my head on my knees.

This is what I was afraid off all this time. Noah finding me. Maybe i'm even more scared of him finding Lando. God knows what Noah would do to him. Noah ruined my life. Just when things started to get better he came in and ruined it all.

I start sobbing uncontrollably. Everything hurts. My heart aches. I hear nothing, except a beep in my ear.

I feel everything and nothing. All at once.

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