An inconvenient attachment

Part 2: Chapter 6

I take a step back, trying to get some air. I bump into the table full of presents. Lando hasn't let go of my palm, and automatically takes a step towards me. Lando's face is now only inches away from mine. I feel his breath on my lips. Fuck. He places his hands next to my hips, leaning them on the table. I fight the urge to slam my lips onto his. He bites his bottem lip, like he's also trying not to kiss me. "You sure about that 'friends' thing?" he asks, looking at my lips. "Hmm" I know how to bring out, not really answering his question. The truth is, I don't know what I want. All my life my focus was on someone else, not myself. Noah, my brother, Addison. I always had somebody to take care off or worry about. Maybe I should make myself happy first, like Charlotte said. But god, I want to kiss him so bad. I don't know how much longer I can stand here without kissing him. The urge to wrap my arms around his neck is big.

"Miaaa, where are you?" someone yells from a distance, in an france accent. Pierre. Lando lays his head on my shoulders and sighs deep. "Great. Pierre" Lando says sarcastically. Lando takes a step back. I take a deep breath. God, my cheeks are probably burning.

"There you areeeee" Pierre says with his arms wide open. He's clearly tipsy. "Congrats Mia" he says while giving me a short hug. "Thanks Pierre, I didn't know you were in Monaco" I say. "Yeah, wouldn't want to miss your party" Pierre says. "Wait, how did you guys know? I got the email like a few hours ago" I ask confused. Lando gives Pierre a look, which says 'really dude?'. "Oh, yes, uh, well you know how it is, book a flight and an hour later you sit in a plane" Pierre says. I guess that's true. "I'm going to get a drink" I say, quickly walking away. Pierre and Lando stay there, I don't hear what they are saying, but Lando seems annoyed. But lately he's always annoyed with Pierre, so that's not something I worry about.

"That was intense" someone says as I take a shot. I look next to me and see Daniel standing there. "Daniel right? Lando's teammate?" I ask, just to be sure. "Yup, the one and only" Daniel says. He hands me another shot. "You look like you need it" he laughs. God, his laugh is contagious. "I do" I sigh as I put the glass back down. "I think a congratulations is in order" Daniel says. "All thanks to some new big giver with a lot of money" I laugh. "Cheers to that" Daniel says, clinking his glass against mine. "Come! Dance with me" Charlotte says. I don't have time to say anything before she drags me away. 

The rest of the night we keep chatting, dancing and laughing. It's honestly one of the best night i've had lately. Lando seems to be having fun as well. He actually had some drinks. Before I know it it's almost 2 a.m. and the first people start leaving. I say bye to everyone and thank them for coming.

"You're not driving home, mate" Max says when Lando wants to leave. "It's not far from here. I can walk" Lando says. "Don't be silly, I have an extra room for you" Max offers. Well, he's not really offering, it's more like a statement. "Sure, thanks" Lando says, catching my gaze. "I'm going to bed. Thanks for the party" I say to Max. Kelly already went to bed. We're the last three standing. Well, Daniel is here too. But he passed out on the couch. "Shouldn't we bring Daniel to a bed or something?" I ask. "No, he's fine there. That's his usual spot" Max laughs. I want to light up a cigarette, but don't because I know Max will get angry. "Sleep well" I say, trying to open the door as softly as I can. "You owe me for that door" Max jokes. "Like you can't afford a handyman" I hear Lando say before I close the door behind me. I almost think I woke up Daniel when I hear some noise coming from the couch, but he's just turning around.

About an hour later I lay in bed. Wide awake. I keep tossing an turning. All the things from tonight keep running through my head. All the things he said. I look at my watch and see it's been 4 a.m. already. I throw the blankets off of me and walk over to the bathroom to grab a glass of water. When I finish that I lay back down. Maybe I should see if Lando can sleep? No, Mia. Bad idea. But what if he lays awake too? Maybe I should just ask him about tonight. I can't get that stupid almost kiss out of my head. I can't get him out of my head. Ok, maybe just a peek down the hall. I throw the blankets off of me, again. I softly open my door. I almost scream when I do.

I see Lando standing before my door. He's leaning against the wall, he looks up when my door opens.

He looks at me in shock, his mouth slightly open. I'm pretty sure I look about the same right now. We both stay silent for a moment, not knowing what to say. "I, uh, was just going to check.." I say, but I don't get to finish my sentence.

"I can't fall asleep without you next to me" Lando says, waiting for me to say something. Well, I sure as hell wasn't expecting that to come out of his mouth. Off all the things he could have said, he says this. I'm fucked.