That night I barely sleep. Thoughts about Noah keep circling in my head. Just when I thought I finally left him all behind, he pops up again. The sunrise is about to start. I look at my watch and see it's fricking early. I get out of bed as quietly as possible. I don't want to wake Lando. I walk into the living room, softly open the door and walk outside towards the beach. I sit down and watch the sunrise. I can't get over this view. A tear rolls down my face. I wipe it away with my hand, I didn't realize I was crying. I didn't realize how scared I am of Noah still. I thought I was ok, but hearing his name, hearing what he did to Addison's phone, the possibility to walk in to him at one of the races, its all too much. I left him behind. God, I even moved away.
"Up early again?"
"God you scared me" I say when Max is sitting down beside me, "I could say the same about you".
"Yeah, well, I have sensors on the doors so the alarm goes off in my room when a door is opened at night" he says. Oh fuckkk.
"Oh my god, I'm sorry! I didn't know" I stumble. God now I feel bad for waking him this early. Oh fuck, that's probably why he woke up early the other morning too.
"It's ok, I'll nap again in the afternoon" he jokes. Max looks at me and probably sees I've been crying because the expression on his face changes.
"Fuck" he sighs.
"What?"
"I'm not good with crying people" he says while making a weird gesture with his hand, waving towards my face. I can't help but laugh at his uncomfortable face.
"I'm fine" I say.
"Yeah, you look fine" he says sarcastically. Max wraps his arm around me and pats my bag like I'm a dog. I laugh but tears start rolling down my face again. I sigh.
"This isn't me. I'm so tired of crying, so tired of being scared" I spurt out before I realized what I just said. Did he hear what I say? I hope not. He probably did. Fuck me.
"Why are you scared?" Max grabs me by my shoulder, making me look at him.
"Fuck, I hoped you didn't hear that" I say softly.
"Well I did, so spill the beans" he says.
"It's um, my ex boyfriend" I say while tears stream down my face uncontrollably. Max looks at me surprised.
"What, did he hit you or something?" he asks slightly sarcastic. Probably thinking that anyone in his right mind wouldn't touch his girlfriend like that. I look at him, not knowing what to say. I just nod my head.
"Fucking hell, Mia" he says. His hand scratching the back of his head. He doesn't seem to know what to say. But neither do I. Fuck it, he knows it now, nothing to hide I guess.
"It wasn't the hitting I was particularly scared of, it scared me ofcourse, but it was the mind games that really fucked me up. I thought I left him behind. But he is still fucking with my life, Max. And I heard he probably will go to the race of Spain. I don't wanna.., I can't see him again" I spurt out.
"It's going to be allright" he says while softly patting my back again. We sit there for a while in silence and watch the sunrise. I wonder why I can speak to Max so easily. Speaking in our mother language makes it easier, but I don't know why I just said all of that.
"Why don't you just skip the race of Spain?" he asks.
"Have you met Lando? You know how persuasive he is" I sigh.
"True. Well, he won't be able to get into the paddock I assume?"
I shrug my shoulders. "You tell me, I don't know the rules."
He shakes his head. "No, he won't be able to walk around there freely. Besides, Lando would understand if you would skip that one."
I look at Max. Who looks at me with an annoyed face. "Oh Mia, you told him right?"
"No, and I don't want him to know so you can't tell him." I say bitchier than I meant.
He holds up his hands like I'm going to shoot him. "It's not my place to tell, I won't say anything."
"I'm sorry. It's just, I haven't told anyone really. Just my best friend from home. I didn't even want her to know, but she saw my bruises so I was kinda forced to tell her."
"You know this is not your fault right? You shouldn't be ashamed to tell people. Not all people all bad you know. Some may even try to help you" he says jokingly.
"Thanks" I say.
"You know that if you want to, I mean, if you ever want to talk to someone you can call me right?" he says slightly awkward. I smile. "Thanks Max, that's sweet." I'm used to dealing with things on my own. I'm used to it. It is nice of him to offer though.
He gives me a pat on my head, "well, enough talking for a day" he says as he stands up. He offers his hand to help me get up. "And now get dressed and get out of here" he jokes. I laugh and shake my head.
A few hours later Lando drops me off at school. Normally I get out right away, but I have a few minutes left until my class begins. "I'm going to miss you this week" I say.
"You better" he jokes.
"Well, actually, it's only two days I won't see you, so I guess I'll manage."
He turns towards me. "I liked it better when you said how much you were going to miss me."
I look at him. His face only inches away from mine. His eyes are focused on my lips.
"Fuck, what you can do with those lips" he growls. My cheeks instantly burn up. God, what just his words can do. His lips touch my jaw. Leaving kisses. His lips move towards the spot just below my ear. Good god. I grab his arm, not wanting him to stop. The thought that someone can see us doesn't even cross my mind. His lips move towards mine. His tongue eager to find mine. Fuck. I grab his hair and pull him in closer. Suddenly he lets me go. I look at him, slightly out of breath, wanting more.
"If we don't stop now, I will fuck you right here." God, he talks so dirty. Fucking in the car, it doesn't seem to bad. Lando smiles, like he can read my mind.
"Lets save it for some other time. I'm pretty sure you don't want your whole class to see" he jokes. Shit, I forgot.
"I would open the door for you, but.. you know it's kinda hard right now" he says while pointing to his dick. I want to say something but choke on my words. Instead I open the door and get out of the car.
"I'll call you tonight" I say, laughing while walking away. God, this boy.
Thank you guys for commenting on my question about the pov's. I'm currently working on some other chapters, but Lando's pov is coming!🧡
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RomanceMia moves to a new city where she meets Lando, who shows her a whole new world. But is she ready for a new world? And does she even want it? (Also fun to read for non-F1 fans :))