You don't even want me

25.

[Camille]

I was woken up by my alarm clock, and I turned it off quickly before getting out of bed and getting myself ready for school. I thought it was quite funny: I was excited to sit next to James a whole day, while in the beginning, I thought it would be the end of me.

Looking back, the idea of pushing him away not to get too close was stupid, because like that, I would never even have the chance of getting him to like me. But I didn't want that; of course, deep down, I did, but I'd convinced myself that that wasn't what I wanted, nor needed. I had to stay away from him as I'd be lost if we were friends, because somehow, it had gotten into my head that he'd never be interested in me.

Turned out I was wrong, and it had surprised me so much that I couldn't nor wanted to believe it. The multiple times he'd tried to make a move, I'd blamed it on his personality and that it was just how he was, but that wasn't true.

He was only doing that with me, or I hoped, at least, and I was curious to see how it was going to go from now on.

I said goodbye to my Mum and sister, and not so much later, I greeted Jasmine and Grace before leaving for school. Jasmine was biking in the middle and Grace to her right, I to her left. "So, Beer Pong, huh?" she asked with a cheeky smile, and I let out an awkward chuckle.

"Yeah..." I mumbled, thinking about that night again. It was a very nice one, but at the same time a horrible one. He'd put his arm around me while talking to Noah, and that'd made enough feelings rush through my entire body. And then, he'd tried to kiss me but I pulled away as I blamed it on the alcohol he'd been drinking and I ended up hurting both him and myself. I didn't realise what he actually wanted yet, and that was me. He wanted me, and I'd been in a good mood ever since I found out about that.

We spent the whole ride listening to Jasmine rattling about the party and how Max had been super nice to her, and soon we arrived at school.

We walked over to the playground and stood with our friends in a cirkle, and I looked around the area to see if James was already there. My gaze scanned it all, and stopped when I found him.

He was standing with his friends and a few girls, but he wasn't paying attention to any of those people; he was looking directly at me.

A smile appeared on both our faces and we held eye contact, staring at each other from different places on the playground.

Suddenly, the bell rang and our eye contact broke when everyone started walking towards the entrance of the building; we did the same. In the hallway he walked towards me and gave me a cheeky smirk when he reached me. "Goodmorning" he mumbled, trying to hold back a smile.

"Goodmorning" I greeted him back, looking down at my feet with slightly red cheeks by something as simple as his presence.

I took off my jacket in the hallway in front of the classroom of our first lesson; James waited for me and just observed me and my actions patiently. We walked into the room together and took a seat at our desk in the back of the class, putting my backpack on the ground against the wall before sitting down.

The first hour went by pretty quickly, his foot subtly touching mine from time to time and sending warm, pleasant feelings through my belly. I wondered if he did it on purpose, as it happened quite regularly.

The bell for the second lesson rang and we all got up, gathering our stuff and quickly leaving the room to go to the chemistry classroom. I walked with James as Jasmine was busy talking to Max, and I couldn't help but hope he'd sit down next to me again, having to admit that I really liked that last time.

Like I'd helplessly hoped, James followed me to the back of the class and sat down next to me, just like he'd done before.

Max and Jasmine both sent a little glance our way when they walked into the room, but they didn't seem to bother seeing us together, which meant they to set next to each other again.