It's still this attitude of not listening to me. I keep getting these calls, and it makes me edgy. "Come back to work. We need you. Doc is this. I am this. If you don't come back, ..." Goddamit!
For a second, don't you fucking care that you're talking to a human with complete emotions? Like can't you see I'm also struggling to come to terms with shit? Why do people ALWAYS feel like they somehow have a right to know what's best for another?
I left religion and it's the same fucking routine. "Come back to God. We miss you. God still loves you. We need you. The church... Blah blah blah bullshit."
People hardly ever stop to ask meaningfully, "what happened? How are you feeling going through with this decision?"
Oh well. Probably it's just my expectation bar of how things should be, but you see, if I make my decisions, I simply need you to respect it. That's all. Fucking respect my autonomy. And if you feel affected in any way, we can come to the table to talk about things and come to an understanding, not you trying to blackmail me emotionally or hand twist me into changing my mind. I'm going to just fucking hate you for life.
The thing is I don't even have a grouse with Doc & the management team, in my opinion. And I respect their decision too. It's mutual. I couldn't handle stuff and needed to leave, and they couldn't afford to still have me around thus the immediacy of resignation; my date of notice fell short of the stipulated contractual period.
Despite the underlying emotions, I consider it fair play, sticking to the letter and terms. And maybe a goodbye is a goodbye, but the fuck people be calling me about?
Nothing's going to change from what's been decided on except things go official. Till then, I think it best to be in the clear. It's the do unto others as you would have them do to you thingy at play here.
No love lost; no love found. Purely business and ethics. That's all.
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Random Experiences - 2022
Não FicçãoThis is a random journal of an introverted explorer of experiences.
