in my head

Chapter 25

"Ugh" I groaned as I opened my eyes to sunlight burning my them. I buried my face into the pillow which smelt like Timothee.

"Hey you up?" He shouted from the other room.

"No" I replied back.

I could hear him laugh before opening the door and coming into the room. My face was still sunk into the pillow but I felt the bed move slightly.

"I'm sorry about last night" I said.

"You don't need to be sorry" He smiled.

I pulled myself up and sat at the side of the bed. Seeing my reflection in the window I'd never looked worse. My curly hair was a complete mess and my makeup from last night was smeared across my face.

"Ugh...I look awful"

"I mean at least you still fit the euphoria theme"

I turned at him and frowned but couldn't help but smile.

"Want some coffee?"

"Stupid question" I replied.

He got up to make coffee while I tried looking for my phone. I was still wearing my outfit from last night and even though it was a hot summers day outside, I felt cold. I came out of his room hugging my arms. Timothee passed me a cup of coffee.

"Here" He threw a purple hoodie at me.

This was my favourite one of his, I wonder if he knew that. I pulled it over my head.

Timothee looked at me with the most heart melting smile across is face. The kind that made butterflies appear in my stomach. I flopped onto the couch and lay there, looking at the ceiling.

"What you thinking about?" Timothee asked as he sat near to my head.

"Nothing"

"What I would give to be able to take a look inside your mind"

I stared up at him wishing I could just tell him how I really felt but I couldn't. I've never been good with expressing my emotions. That's why I write songs, because it's easier for me.

"So I was thinking. I'm filming in San Francisco soon would you like to come with me?" Looking slightly nervous.

"Are you kidding. Of course I would" smiling up at him.

"I didn't know with you starting a new job if you'd be able to"

"I'm sure it'll be fine but I'll find out tomorrow" I said, praying it would be.

We stayed in the whole day watching movies. I made him watch 10 things I hate about you which I couldn't believe he hadn't seen and silver linings playbook which he had.

I'd noticed a few times how Timothee would often study my face while watching a film, which I course I didn't mind but it was quite distracting. When the film finished he turned to look at me.

"What?" I said rolling my eyes.

"Nothing" he laughed.

"No tell me" I begged.

"Nope"

"Why not"

"Because you never tell me what you're thinking"

"That's not fare" I pouted, crossing my arms.

He tried to hide a smile which didn't work. So I put the hood up on Timothee's hoodie and hugged my legs to my chest.

I sat there for a minute until Timothee wrapped his hands around my waist and lifted me up off the couch.

"No Timothee" I said laughing.

He put me back on the couch and pulled the hood down, hovering over me.

"Don't be mad at me" he said close to my face.

"I'm not. I'm just tired" one of my many flaws. Being in the worst mood when tired or hungry.

He still had his face close to mine which made me nervous and unable to keep eye contact. He leant in further staring right into my eyes before standing up and walking to the kitchen with a smirk on his face. I swear he knew how I felt and just did this because I wouldn't admit how I felt.

"So want to go out for dinner tonight?" He asked as though nothing had happened.

"Uh yeah. I'll go back to mine and get changed" I left his apartment and walked back to mine, my mind still conflicted over Timothee.

"Hey is that Timothee Chalamets hoodie?" A girl came up to me in the street.

"What no...no it's mine" I said.

How would she even know that. It's just a purple hoodie.

"But you're the girl I always see him with" she continued.

"Um no you must have me confused with someone else" I said trying to edge away.

"Your accent kind of gives it away. Haven't you seen all the reports on you?"

"No. What reports?" Panicking.

"So your are her" she squealed "could you tell Timothee I love him and he's amazing in call me by your name"

"Yeah sure" I said before running back to my apartment.

I grabbed my phone out my bag and looked up Timothee and there I was on several different news platforms.

'Who is Timothee's new girl?'

'Everything you need to know about Timothee's new girlfriend'

'How long will Timothee's new girlfriend last?'

Feeling slightly sick and dizzy I sat on my bed. I mean how didn't I see this coming, he is one of the biggest actors, I just never really comprehend this happening. I don't know what I was worried about because I was the least interesting person there was.