in my head

Chapter 32

I somehow ended up in the middle of the room where the music was shaking the ground. The next song came on and I was about to lose my shit. It was a song from euphoria, the one were Cassie is dancing alone drunk.

"You say oh I'm not afraid it can't happen to me" I sang slurring the words.

I felt like Cassie in this moment because I wasn't really dancing but I was. Grabbing a bottle of whatever from the table next to me I drank as the song played.

"Oh no you're out of your mind it won't happen to me" I shouted.

Drinking and moving and swaying and forgetting. I was living my euphoria dream and I wasn't even thinking about the other people until I felt a hand on my arm. I looked behind to see a tall brown haired guy looking down at me. Pulling my arm away from him I drank some more whatever and listened to the rest of the song.

"ANYBODY WANNA DRINK BEFORE THE WAR" I screamed before falling to floor.

Next thing I knew I was lying across a bed. I was still drunk because the room was spinning. Rolling off on to the floor I felt weird. As I stood up I was standing on the ceiling, what the fuck was happening. I crawled along the floor trying to get to the door which for some reason felt impossible, like it was getting further away.

In the end I gave up and let my body lay on the floor, I felt too weak to move. My ears picked up the sound of the door opening. When I lifted my head up to the door my eyes burned from the light. Someone walked in I could see their dark blue trainers slowly coming towards me.

I felt hands around my waist and realised I was being picked up by someone. By the time I'd thought to actually resist whoever this was, my back hit softness. I was back on the bed.

Two hands held down my wrists so I couldn't move. My eyes readjusted and I realised it was the guy from earlier, the tall one.

"What are you doing?" I said.

He leant in close to my face and forced my mouth open. I tried shaking my head but I didn't have the energy. I felt something drop into my mouth and before I had time to spit it out, water was poured onto my face practically drowning me.

He loosened his grip at which I kneed him in the chest and ran to the door. I ran down the hallway and into a room full of the same people from earlier. They all looked at me but I couldn't even make out their faces. Some were swirling around and others looked like they were standing on the ceiling or was it me.

"Hey Lucie. God are you ok? What happened?" Lexie came up to me.

"I- I uh I don't kno-w" stuttering my words.

"You need to get out of here" she whispered then gave me a look that honestly scared me.

"Wh-at...what do you mean?" I said.

"You just need to go, trust me" and I didn't need to be told again. I stumbled out onto hallway of the apartment building and headed straight out the door. The fresh cool air hit me and I let it pour into my lungs.

I managed to make it to some grass and laid down. It felt like I was floating in the air, like literally.

Timothee I wanted Timothee. No I needed him. I couldn't just stay here in the middle of a city on some grass and I didn't feel safe either after what happened. But I was drunk.

"Shit" I said when I thought back to the guy who'd put something in my mouth. What the fuck was going to happen to me, it could've been anything.

I felt for my phone in the back pocket of jeans and saw five missed calls from Timothee. Shit shit shit. I dialled him straight away.

"Lucie where have you been?" He sounded so worried. It was weird I felt like I could taste his voice.

"C-can you come g-get me" I sobbed through the phone.

"Where are you?"

"On s-some grass. I d-don't know w-here"

"Don't move I'm coming to get you" he said hearing the shear panic in his voice.