(so i heard the song Alyssa greene and had to write this )
you sigh as you sit with Isabela in the empty cafeteria at school.
"and why won't you go to prom with me?" you ask your secret girlfriend hurt that she won't come out and admit she's gay.
"You know what my abuela's like. She's a complete and total control freak. The hair has to be perfect. The As have to be straight. You have to join the debate club that there's no debate. You'll have Bible camp each summer to keep you pure and clean. Endless rules apply when you're Isabela Madrigal" Isabela said
she stands up and turns her back to you
"Trophies have to be first place. Ribbons have to be blue. There's always some competition Or hoops for jumping through. Your Abuela made sacrifices so win Homecoming Queen...Cause it's do or die when you're Isabela Madrigal. "
you stand up and hold her hand
"And you wish there was a world where you were simply free to live And when people criticized you you had no more shits to give, And in this other lifetime when you tell yourself, "Be brave". You won't cave. That's the one thing I truly crave. " Isabela tears up a bit
you gently kiss her cheek and she smiles small
"But your feelings have to be phony. Your weight has to be tracked. If you don't like shaking pom poms You'd better learn to act. Just have everything perfected. By the time you reach eighteen. Don't ask how or why when you're Isabela Madrigal"
Isabela let's go of your hand and hugs herself
"Improve all of your strong points And hide things that you lack. Cause Abuela's convinced if you're perfect the miracle would be strong.You're not yourself. You're not what she wants. You're someone in between. Your whole life's a lie when you're Isabela Madrigal"
Isabela sits down. you sit with her.
"I believe you have feelings for me... but i can't do this anymore. It hurts too much. " you admit
"is this... are you breaking up with me?" Isabela ask with her voice breaking
"I guess i am, yeah... bye" you said
you rush off not wanting to face her.
"You're not yourself. You're not what she wants. You're someone in between" Isabela sings quietly to herself as she watches you run off
