Justice

46

Lia's Point of View

I just signed up a contract with my brother's manager. We are going to work on a music production after their work project on the other country.

They will be leaving for tomorrow so I have a lot of works to do.

I am now on my way back to my unit.

Gina and I agreed that I will take my son tomorrow after school. Inaayos ko pa ang unit ko at balak ko na ring kausapin sila mommy at daddy bukas. There are so many things I'd really like to tell them.

Kagaya kahapon, nakatingin lang ako sa sahig habang naglalakad sa loob ng building. There are people I just don't want to think about anyone or anything right now.

When I am in front of my unit, I was surprised when my phone suddenly rings. Imagine how quiet and peaceful this floor is then suddenly my familiar ring tone breaks the silence.

Nakita ko na si Trevor ang tumatawag kaya naman hindi ko ulit ito sinagot. Hindi dapat ako magalit o mainis sa kanya pero hindi ko mapigilan.

Nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad pero may biglang humila sa braso ko. I turned myself to the one who pulled me.

Natigilan ako ng makita si Trevor. I froze for a second but I avoided his gaze. I pulled my arm and was about to run away but he speak.

"So you are my new neighbor." he said.

I sighed. I bravely looked at him before I speak.

"Oh, tapos?" I casually asked.

I saw hints of confusion on his eyes. I should listen to him. I know that he has his reasons for not telling me that he knew who my son's father is. But I am really upset.

Bigla na lang niyang hinila ang braso ko. I can't even pull it back. And why am I even letting him drag me out?

We went on the parking lot and get in his car.

"Where are we going? Marami pa akong gagawin Trevor. Pwede bang sa ibang araw na lang tayo--"

"I'll tell you everything." he seriously said that shut me up.

Napalunok ako bago mag-iwas ng tingin. I can't deny the fact that I missed him. I want to talk to him and confront things that I think I should know. May kinalaman dito ang anak ko and as his mother, I should be able to know.

Few minutes passed when we arrived the same spot where I shouted like crazy last time. Words run out of my head. I can't find anything to say to him.

"Malia," he called. I didn't bother to look at him for my unknown reason. "Why are you avoiding me?" he asked.

"I want to rest, Trevor. Bumalik na tayo." I coldly said. Im not yet in the mood to talk to anybody. I need to get myself on a comfortable bed so that I can be ready for tomorrow.

"Alright then," he agrees but not convinced.

Bago pa niya buksan ang makina ng sasakyan, nagsalita na ako.

"Nakita ko ang malaking picture ng family ni Director Gab kanina sa mansion nila." I started and noticed him stiff. "The maid told me that the other kid on the family picture names Trevor. And I really feel that it is you." I confronted, somewhat mad.

Humarap ako sa kanya and saw him in different emotions. Anger, sadness, fear, shame and so. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin bago huminga ng malalim.

"It might be Travis, right? I hate someone who lies to me like I am just not worthy sharing something about. And yes, it is my fault for hating you and I'm sorry. I never knew who you are. It feels like I am talking to a stranger all this time." I weakly said before I swept my tears.

Muli akong humarap sa kanya at nakitang nakatitig lang siya sa akin.

"You don't have to say anything. I guess I really am someone you could never rely on. And thank you for staying with me, Trevor." I said like I am saying goodbye to him.

I get off his car without waiting for him to say anything. But it hurts so much. I made my knees strong enough to walk away until I felt his hands on my arms, forcing me to face him.

"I'll tell you everything." he firmly said.

Kumunot ang noo ko habang nakatingin lang sa kanya. He slowly takes his hands off me and started to pull out the buttons of his polo shirt in front of me!

I quickly turn around when I felt my cheeks burning. Ano ba'ng ginagawa niya?

Few seconds passed when I heard him speak.

"You can turn around to me now."he commanded.

"Nababaliw ka na? Ano ba'ng ginagawa mo? Anong sasabihin mo na kailangan mo pa--"

"You'll see." he challenged me.

Napalunok ako bago dahan-dahang humarap sa kanya. Sinalubong ako ng sobrang perpektong katawan ni Trevor na nagbigay ng kilabot sa buong katawan ko. This is very new to me. Muli akong tumalikod at kinagat ang labi ko.

Ako yata ang nababaliw na.

"Umayos ka nga, Trevor--"

"When I was a kid," he started that caught my attention. His voice is very weak ang low. "My parents used to lock me and my brothers in a tiny room under that mansion."

Natigilan ako dahil sa sinabi niya. May kung ano sa sistema ko ang biglang nalungkot at nasaktan para sa kanya. I slowly looked at him and caught by his mesmerizing eyes.

"They wanted to raise three young men who are going to be perfect enough based on their criteria. Pinaparusahan nila kami, hoping that we can learn from our mistakes. But I am the worst kid they had." he admitted. Dahan-dahan siyang tumalikod at nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil gulat ng makita ang likod niya.

Maraming malalaki at mahahabang peklat ang nagkalat sa buong likod ni Trevor.

Nagsimulang pumatak ang mga luha ko dahil sa halo-halong emosyon na nararamdaman ko.

Alam kong hindi madali ang pinagdaanan niya. Alam kong mahirap ang lahat para sa kanya. Alam kong hindi niya ginusto ang lahat. Mababakas sa mga latay sa likod niya ang bangungot na pinagdaanan niya.

"I used to save my brothers from their punishments. Both Travis and Gab learned it too late that my father is abusing me physically." he said when he faced me again, but not looking at me.

I want to stop him. I can't see him telling all his pain, it hurts me. But I cannot. My mind screams for more, I want to hear more. But my heart is against it all.

"I am weak enough to stand for myself. And I decided to go against them seven years ago. When I met someone who gave me the courage to fight." he suddenly looked at me.

"Seven years ago, I saw you. We've met at that green house where we went earlier." he said that made me stiffed.

I don't remember him. I only remembered that there was day, the day I got my fear of tight spaces.

"I am too ashamed that if someone will know that they are my parents, I will be drowning in my own grave. I hate them. I never knew how a parents' love really is. Until I knew everything. How you treat your son as the most important person in the world. You even care for him much more than you care for yourself. And I adore you so much. How you fought really well. I wish my parents are as brave as you are--"

I hugged him tightly as I let my tears fall down.

"That's enough. It's okay..." I almost whispered while tapping his back. I can't keep hearing him say a word that is killing him inside.

I want to be the one who will help him to heal from his past. I want to stay with him as much as I could.

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Resacoya
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