Heart of A Jamaican Don (Book 1)

Chapter Thirty Seven

Chanize POV

"Fuck pan you Dwayne... for what? No i am not, just..."

"So weh you mean you want a fucking break? break from what?"

he continued as he drove us home

"You think say you ago get enough break time when you start work a ibex,"

What a man love carry on

"Dwayne this is the same exact reason why it must happen!" I yelled

Silence

"When there is no shouting, there is shooting Dwayne, my family... they- they..." i stuttered, "I am alone Dwayne and all we doing is fucking argue!" tears flow down my cheeks, 

I was like an emotional balloon that was ready to explode.... A true me a breed mek this a happen?

"Just cause me pregnant.. Fi you Dwyane... Fi you, my family turned their back on me, I am afraid..." 

I felt embarrassed after saying all that, I didn't plan on saying but i was holding in for so long and I just couldn't anymore,


Dwayne didn't say anything... he just kept driving, his eyes was unreadable and his shoulders seems tensed, and for the rest of the drive I could feel the tension squeezing us in.

Of course there is no other man, but Dwayne... Dwayne is something else, and for some reason he feels as if this baby... our baby makes me tied to him for life... and thats no so.

i didn't want this to go the it went... but at the same time. I am glad it did... 

And i love him... more than I should but I do.

Pulling up the gate, he did head inside like he would he just sat there staring at nothing. Both hand fixed tight around the steering, the low sounds of the engine filled the dead air,

Should i get out? i asked myself
Is he thinking about how to start a conversation... well, an argument in our case.

So I waited for about... seven minutes, and he said nothing, he barely even blinked... he didn't look at me, not even for a second. Dwayne's  face was stone cold and I couldn't tell if he was upset, sad... happy? But no emotions were shown.

Shaking my head, i opened the car door, clutching my handbag I closed the door softly behind me.

God know say me should a left it open....

The tires shrieked against the road as he sped off, 

The jancrow did a wait pan me fi come out a him car

KMT

Pulling on the lock on the side gate, i went inside...mumbling to myself,

"Fucking crawscis,"  i twisted the doorknob, noticing he didn't lock the door.

Why didn't he...

"Sister gyal!" Ashley leaped towards me

My eyes knew it was her before my brain could,

"Wull on... Wull on," my hand shield my stomach, the other bracing her off,

She stared at me, before a mysterious smile crept on her face

"Then watch baby mother she," her voice drowned in mockery,

We burst into laughter.

"It's not funny," I pulled her into  hug,

"Then goods a how you frighten so?"

"Weh you mean?" I walk towards the kitchen, i was craving something cold and sweet, "How me fi know say you deh ya..." I paused,

Yeah... how is she here alone in Dwayne's house.

"Uhmm..." i barely tugged the refrigerator door handle, "How you get in?"

"You man... him did deh ya... well me come ya come see him.."

Obviously, I thought.... a fi him house.

"And him tell me say you gone pan the road and him about fi come pick you up... wait a him pick you up?"

Letting out a soft sigh, I disgusted with my self and the way i was thinking, Jesus I need to get away from these people and just have a mini vacation with just my self and my little prince...

Prince, I smiled.... 

"Chan..." Ashley called out, "You good?'

"Yeah..." just zoned out a bit,

"Oh," she laughed, "i don't missed pregnancy.... All though me hear such man a talk bou wah me think about having a next one.... one weh planned this time him say," Ashley laughed,

My stomach churned

I didn't remember and she doesn't know.

That pussy hole don't tell her... Yet.

"Uno a plan for a next baby?" i laughed nervously as I pulled a spoon from the tray, "So quick... I mean, you think it kinda.. you know... too soon?" I bit my outer lip,

"Weh you mean too soon?" Ashley's voice was deep and defensive,

"Me no mean nothing... me just a say with everything weh happened before..."

"But at the end of the day, he is my baby father... so me no know weh yah say. Plus at the time we were both young, plus how soon after you and Dwayne start deh before you get pregnant? Don't judge him.... him change,"

Ouch... that connect you fuck

But look how me call this gyal from weh she did deh God, and she come mek man tun her in menkeh.

And hear the classic yam head line...

Him change

And how she down ya so long? she nah go back a work?

"Sorry... " I apologised, "Me just no wah see you get hurt that's all," i smiled,

Dwayne did right... 

Ano my secret this fi tell.

She said nothing 

"You know me nah feel the ice-cream again, mek we go a HILO nuh,"

"Weh yah go buy?"

"Me no know.... me just wah come out a the house," I laughed trying to brighten up the air,

"And member say Burger King and Shakura deh pan the same stretch"

"No... No, me will take the Burger King, Shakura nah cook the dog them good from wah day girl,"

I laughed

But... some part of me felt sad for her, because I know love like that, and when she finds out about Keisha, I just have to be here for her.

"So who a drive?"

"No must me," i slide the ice cream back into the refrigerator, "Somebody else deh ya fi drive," I pulled my purse from my hand bag,

"Me no know... weh you man?" Ashley walked up behind me,

"Don't know nothing bou nobody eno Ashley," I grabbed one of his car key from the bowl, Ashley was far behind me,  "Goodly a suck some gyal crotches, deh now," I mumbled.

"You have mask in a you purse?"

"Mask suppose in the car," i answered.



Inside Hilo

"Me nah drive with you again,"  Ashley's palm clawed into her chest, 

"You too extra," I laughed pushing the trolley, "I wasn't even driving fast,"

"Ok but your road rage?"

"My road rage?" I raised my eyebrow, 'I have a road rage?"

"You called a taxi driver a 'batty bwoy' "

"Yeah," I nodded,  "Cause him a batty boy, most male drivers give woman drivers bly, him sure him say me did wah make a turn,"


 "Anyways..." Ashley grabbed a box of fruit of loops from the shelf as we strode by, Throwing it in the cart, "What we  buying first?"

"Meat," i spoke as we approached the freezers, "Want some chicken breast, pork, shrimp..."

"Shrimp? Sorry but me nah buy six baby shrimp fi two grand,"

"A that with you now," I looked across at her, "You very fucking extra as me say..."

The trolley bumped into someone else's. 

They were turning the corner the time as me.

And there he was...

The Hersheys drop

"I'm so sorry ladies..." he paused when his eyes met mine.

I haven't seen him in a while.

"Chan..." my name rolled off his tongue lightly

"Hi..." my voice trembled

Marvin.

"Long time me no see you, how you been?"

"Uhm... me alright. How about you,"

"Me good eno... in a wah way," His gazed shifted to Ashley, then back at me.

"You must visit me sometime..."

"Don't think your Landlords ago want me in them yard,"

"A yard space i am paying for,"

"Well, I don't know yet,"

"As a friend... me could a cook fi you and them thing deh,"

I smiled, biting my lip, happy that the mask was concealing most of my nervousness.

"Well I am now eating for two so..." I touched my stomach,

He looked down at my hand, then back into my eyes,

"Does it matter?"

Something back flicked in my stomach, 

Don't know if a the baby or a me anxiety

Does it matter can be mean alot of things

Does it matter... cause him still would a deh with me regardless OR
Does it matter... cause we are just friends and he doesn't care.


I was lost for words.

I didn't say anything.

"See you around though Chan, stop being a stranger," he cracked a smile, "You ladies have a goodnight," he pushed his loaded trolley away.


Earlier, Dwayne asked me if me a fuck pan him.... and i said no,

Well the answer just changed from No... No yet.