Afraid

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A/N : I cried, tysm for 20k, I never thought my book would even get more than 100reads tbh. This seems boring right now but I promise, this is only the beginning of the crazy roller coaster of Alex & Zayn.

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Song for this chapter: I found -Amber Run
Or anything sad :(

Alex's POV

I walk out his closet, holding my chest. I heard Zayns pain, I am putting him through hell.

Ashton looks at me worried his eyebrows pulled together, "Are you okay?"

My hands began to shake frantically, "I-i... Put him through hell. Hav- have to get out of here. Wh-what I was I thinking? Oh my god, I am a bad person. My parents?"

Ashton walks closer to me, holding me a arm's length, I look anywhere but him. "Alex, no you aren't. Wanting space to think doesn't make you a bad person."

I nod, listening to him. Trying my hardest to calm down, i look at him, "You're right. But ashton they miss me."

How could I be so selfish, and only worry about my feelings. I didn't bother to think of Zayn's, my parents, nor my friends. I just thought about myself. He smiles smudgy, "I talked to my friend as you were asleep. She said you can stay with her."

I snap back into reality, "Okay." Ashton drops his arms, walking past me, "Let's get you out of here."

I look back at him, "Why did you refer to me as his Ex?"

He slowly grabs my stuff out of the shower, "Because I doubt he'll take you back, if he found out you left with me."

I frown, he is right. Zayn would be pissed, he sounded pissed. I wouldn't deny it either to him, it's not worth telling him it's not what it looks like because it's bad. I left him asleep, I left with another guy.

"But Zayn will understand." I protest, looking at ashton move his arms, grabbing my things, stuffing them in a backpack.

He stands up dropping the backpack, "Alex, I don't know what you want me to say, but I know if my girlfriend left as I was sleeping and with another guy, I wouldn't even bother to hear her out. I wouldn't want to hear her side of the story. It's no use, she left."

I stay silent, taking in each word. Letting it stab me. I sigh, "Never mind."

Ashton sighs, moving his hair out of his face, "I'm sorry, alex."

I look at my feet, "No your right. If Zayn did that to me, I wouldn't forgive him." I feel tears starting to form.

I look up, "It's okay ashton."

He frowns, slowly continually to pack my bag. I look at my hands, the shaking has stopped. I take a deep breath, "Harry is right, you can get arrested for helping me. My dad will probably think you are holding me hostage."

"Well that's just a chance that I will take." He says, handing me my bag.
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Zayn's POV

I walked in the pouring rain. It was when the thunder happened that I called liam to pick me up. He picked me up within minutes. We drove in silence listening to the rain. It was calming. I thought about Alex, how She loved the rain and hated summer, she always said it was hot, and you have to be outside. I believed she was just too lazy, to do anything. That's why she liked winter, to stay inside and watch television or read her books.

Liam took me to queens to get something to eat, I ordered the usual, liam just got a drink.
Liam stared out the window, he looks hopeless just as me. I mean he fancied Alex when she first came. I think liam would have been perfect for Alex, he is respectful, smart. I chuckle at the thought.