Afraid

19.

Complete shit, just warning you.

Zayn's POV

It's nearly 7pm, it's already dark and I still haven't found her. Should I call her parents? Crap! I call her one last time, after a ring she picks up.

"Alex! Oh god! Where are you." I say not giving her chance to speak.

"Stop calling me. I don't want you to call me. Okay? Leave me alone." She says so blunt. She didn't stutter, or hesitate.

"Alex, listen I'm sorry. I just need to know your safe." I'm relieved she answer but I still don't want her alone.

"I'm okay. Just please stop. I'm seconds away from putting you on the block list." She says, I hear wind blowing. Where in the hell is she?

"Where are you?" I put the keys in the engine starting my car.

"If you're really sorry, you'd know." She says softly then hangs up. I think of all the places, we have been. The park! She is at the park.

I speed off to the park, when I get there I park next to the swings. She isn't here. I sit down on the swings, I don't know where to go from here. I hear a tree branch move, I look in that direction, and I see her walking towards me.

I stand up, "Alex." She looks broken, completely shattered.

Her silence drives me insane. Her eyes puffy, "I shouldn't be asking you for anything, but I really want to go home." Tears start to fall.

I walk up to her and hug her tightly, "Oh Alex. I'm sorry. I'm such an asshole." She doesn't hug me back, her hands stay by her side.

I take my jacket off, wrapping it around her and walk her to the car. The drive to her house was probably the most excruciating car ride ever. Pure silence was among us. When I put my hand on her thigh, she removed it. I really pissed her off.

I parked my car outside her house. I locked the door, I wasn't going to let her leave till we talk this out. I'm a sad excuse of a boyfriend.

"Unlock the doors now." She says looking forward.

My eyes watch her jaw clench, "Alex. I have spent the last two hours looking for you. Worried sick, I feel guilt-"

She cuts me off, "Guilty? Good, you should. Do you realize how worthless you made me feel today? I don't know what hurt more you telling me to leave or you not stoping me from leaving. "

Her words slap me, shit. I should have stopped her. She sighs, "Zayn, unlock the door. Please."

I sit there pissed off at myself, I ignore her comment, "Tell me everything. Alex."

"Why? So you can flip out again? Are you mad because you were taken to the police station or because I was abused! Tell me!"

"Tell me what happen" I whisper, she is raising her voice but not me. I'm trying to keep my calm, but I won't keep it long if she doesn't lower her voice.

"My uncle raped me. He had his friends watched as he took away my innocence. I was five!" She yells shaking her head.

I sit there fighting my will power trying not lose control. "Is that why you hurt yourself?" I say looking at the Steering wheel.

She sighs, "No, I hurt myself because I can't look at my parents the same after they walked in on my uncle taking advantage of me. Their faces, was just so disgusted. Ever since then, all I see is pity in their eyes. He took everything from me that wasn't his to take. I don't have my prince, or special night anymore. He should have just killed me."