Afraid

33 part 2

Songs :
I'll be good - Jaymes Young
To build a home - Cinematic Orchestra (mirror scene!)
I think im in love - Kat Dahlia
The Night - Honne

-this chapter is dedicated to all you girls That don't realize you are loved & have ever felt ashamed of your body-

A/N : you are loved ❤️

Zayn's POV

She licks the rim of my lips, "Let go Zayn."

I part my lips, moaning her name. I get a fistful of her hair, pulling her lips to mine. Our teeth clash a couple times, it's rough, hot, intoxicating. I bite her bottom lip, tugging it sucking on it. She giggles with a half moan.

Oh I missed her giggle

I grab her waist slowly turning us around, I hover over her, bending her knees. She looks up at me, "Zayn say it. Please."

Then it hits, she knows that I love her. I always have, I was just afraid to tell her. I thought maybe she didn't feel the same way.
But I don't want to tell her like this, she deserves romantic, but she needs it hear it, "Alex... I love you. I want you more than anything I have ever wanted. You made me feel worthy of love, you believed in me and you still continue to do so. You bewitched me. Your love makes me afraid of everything I thought i knew love was about. I was afraid to love you, I saw my father got hurt, and I witnessed my mum be heartless and cold. Then I saw your love, and I was captivated by it, I was hiding from you. You found me even in the very darkest time, I saw you and wanted you. I'll put all the love books you ever read about to shame, because you finally won't have to read about it, because baby you're going to live it with me. Us, me, and you. Shit and giggles. Day and Night, water and wine, medicine and poison. You and I."

She reaches up touching my face, my face flushes. I lean my face into her hand. Her breathing is slow, her eyes travel down to my bare chest then back at me, "I want you too. I want more with you. Since the day in the hall, when I first saw you, I felt it. I want this as much as I want you to succeed Zayn."

I flash a faint smile, "I wanted to say it first truthfully, I wanted to say it first to see your reaction, and watch you smile. I wanted to say it when your family was around. I wanted to say it when I was with you. Alex, I want to be your boyfriend again, I want to kill the spiders you fear, live the future with you, I want to prove myself wrong, that I am capable of loving somebody." My body feels numb as we stare at each other in silence, and her eyes that once reflect fear are overcome with pleasure. She grins widely before kissing me, her lips feel tiny againt mine. My lips were made to collide with hers, I wrap my arms around her waist, I place my hand on the back of her head, hopping to consume her more. My tongue enters her mouth without a fight. Warm. Sweet. Mine. She tastes like cookies, oh baby. She rolls onto me with a bit of a struggle.

She moans placing her hands on my shoulder, pushing herself up to straddle me. I grip her hips, looking up at her as she takes off her shirt, tossing it on the floor, moving her hair to her side then reconnecting our lips. Her hands roam my bar chest, I move my hands up slowly feeling her curves. I feel little indents when she stops swatting my hand.

I chuckle, and she giggles, "Eww, please don't touch them." She refers to her stretch marks. They disgust her, but not me.

My fingertip touches it, I feel them while looking at her, "Don't be embarrassed, they lead me to your happy trail. They remind me that you are different. They need extra love Alex. Let me praise them." I lean up giving her a chaste kiss on her lips. They are swollen, she slowly smiles, but it's a fake smile.

She is embarrassed, she shouldn't be. She isn't the first girl to have them, and she certainly isn't the last girl to have them. I don't consider them her flaws, because they are perfect, just like her. I admire them, like her eyes. I want to kiss them till she feels comfortable in her own skin.