Afraid

27.

Songs for this chapter :
Dark Paradise- Lana Del Rey (I had it on repeat as I wrote this chapter.)
Or anything heartbreaking.

Okay so I was suppose to update on Thursday but It felt to long to wait. Also 8k, you guys are truly amazing. Tysssssm

Two Days Later

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It was nearly 2am, when she called him. Her parents were out at a friends party. She cries into the phone sitting against the wall, listening to his sleepy raspy voice, "I'm on my way baby. I'm coming. Please don't cry."

The call ended, she screamed through her hands. A scream for comfort, salvation, the need for his warmth. He sped down the highways, finally making it to her house within ten minutes. New record. He ran to her door, and knocked calling her name.
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Zayn's POV

I could hear sniffles through the door, all I could think about was her eyes. Her beautiful dark brown eyes, full of life, ambition, now they are weary, light brown, reflecting the pain that I caused when I left her.

She opens the door, I look down at her. I was right, her eyes aren't the same. Sadness floods them. She wraps her body against mine, taking me by surprise. Her small arms lock around my neck, her legs wrapped around my waist. Strawberries, fill my nostrils. Oh Alex.

I wrap my arms around her securely. She looks up at me, our eyes study each other for a while, then she kisses me slowly. I kiss her back, walking inside her house. Kicking the door shut behind me. Our lips do all the talking. I missed the way she tasted, the way her tongue felt against mine. I walk her against the wall till she is pinned between my body and the wall. Her hands move to my cheeks, kissing me with such passion. My lips can't keep up with her's, she whispers,"we couldn't even stay away from each for five days. Gemma and Harry made silly excuses for us to go to their house. I knew you would go over there. You knew I would go there." Against my lips.

She is right, I wanted to see her. I just didn't have the courage to say hi. These past days, I was running away from love. I didn't need time, my heart was set on Alex. I was just afraid to express my feelings.

I kiss the corner of her lips, "I'm so happy you were there. My eyes were fixed on you the entire time. I called you, you didn't answer so I left a message. You returned the call and then hung up. Why?"

She shakes her head, "I was confused. But your here now. Those five long days are up."

I kiss her cheek, "I missed you so much."

A tear slides down her cheek, I wipe it away with my thumb, "Don't cry." She closes her eyes, feeling my finger against her cheek. So soft, pure, mine.

She unwraps her legs from my waist, gently pushing me away from her. She walks away, I turn to look at her back. My heart was beating so fast, I'm sure she could hear it.

"Zayn. We need to break up." She says in between her sobs. Are my ears deceiving me?

What? No! She can't. I can't. We can't. Liam told her, liam had to fucking tell her. I part my lips, but i can't say anything. It's all my fault. I know it is.

She turns to look at me, "Please don't fight me on this. It took everything I had in me, to call you. I lost my myself when I saw you. I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong impression of us being together again. The kiss was wrong."

I look at her, she doesn't mean a word she is telling me. She wants me, the kiss was right. I have been with her long enough to know when she is lying.

"Why?" I whisper as she starts to pace the living room. Nervously running her hand through her hair. If Liam said anything, he is dead meat.

"I talked to my therapist, and she thinks.. I just have to much on my plate. I didn't want this." Lies...